Posted by Ritch on June 2, 2003, at 22:28:15
In reply to Re: Does Med Education Correlate With tx Resistence? » Ritch, posted by MB on June 2, 2003, at 18:10:06
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> > That heightened level of expectation and vigilance coupled with the large possiblity of combinations/dosages of existing meds may likely be creating a phenomenon of hyperfocus on the meds.
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> But do you think that an individual's hyperfocus on the meds might be a problem? I can see myself some days sitting in the house waiting for the meds to "kick in," when maybe they've already kicked in and all I have to do is go out and join life.
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> However, on second thought, it seems like if they were really working, I'd *want* to go out and join life. Maybe I've just built up so much inertia sitting around, that getting up and out will require some kinda crucial impetus that the meds can't give. Here I go over-thinking.
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> MBI remember a post of yours from quite some time ago where we were talking about OCD. I mentioned something about "rehearsing" what has been said and continually re-examining all of the angles and alternate possibilities, and you replied back mentioning that this was "EXACTLY" what your thoughts were doing. Well....I've noticed a big increase in this sort of thing in the last few weeks....and it seems to be associated with this bipolar transition state I get into every so often. I don't know how it actually relates to OCD for sure (if it does), but it is after I "crash" from a "bubbly" manic phase, but .. not into a depressive phase, but a mixed state thing where I feel temporarily wired at odd times during the day... upbeat when environmental things go well... then very existentially funked-out the minute the good things go away. The thing I've noticed for sure is this major sleep disruption-like sleep earthquakes of some kind. My sense of humor wanes, but I don't feel sad-it's really weird. Anyhow... I notice that when I am waking in the middle of the night that my mind is working on these type of issues/problems, like I have been employed to solve them somehow and must continue to compute all the possibilities. Is it OCD? I'm not sure-it is kind of like being an unenthusiastic draftee-I'm going along for something I'm not into. When I'm in a "pure" high I feel in control of the ideas-like a designer of a well-head to control the oil flow or something. This mixed stuff is different-it is like you are being *presented* with everybody *else's* ideas and you have to deal with too much on the input side-instead of the output side.
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