Posted by mills on May 16, 2003, at 14:25:19
In reply to Re: ARE YOU MY DOPPELGANGER? » mills, posted by Jack Smith on May 16, 2003, at 14:11:36
Yea, I hear you on the elusive diagnosis issue; the story of my OCD-stained life. I have never taken benzos, because frankly the tightness is not in and of itself something I care about per se; it is however the direct manifestation of the anxiety that sits of the core of my soul. Sorry, ouch! And, it's the "magnet" that pulls/compels my attention inward, the nagging, vague gnawing that demands my attention. Is that like yours? And have you felt like you didn't fit in because you couldn't show a "ritual" (i.e. compulsion) or an "intrusive thought" (e.g. "Oh No!! I think I ran over somebody!!, etc.) (i.e. "obsession")? It's been very frustrating to me not to be able to identify, much less "label", what is obviously a disorder of some kind.
So, the benzos help you? Is yours like a "feeling" of a "compulsion?" My problem is the compulsive urge itself, and I don't really have a choice of whether to look within or not; I've got to, i.e. what I think of as a "compulsion" in the first place, right?
You and Matt are the only two people I have ever met that could even relate to this type of OCD. What do you say when people ask you what you have or what are you taking meds for, etc.? I say now an "anxiety disorder" but I even feel weird saying that. Sheesh, I've 48 years old and I'm worried about this type of s***!
> Yes. Sometimes, it just feels like a lot of mucus in my throat. Sometimes, it is in my stomach and it is like I can feel the skin on my stomach much more than anything else. I always thought of it as a physical symptom of GAD but I don't know if that is the correct diagnosis. Do benzos help for you at all?
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