Posted by cruzandfamily on May 3, 2003, at 22:14:46
In reply to Re: tired of mini panic attacks, posted by worrier on May 3, 2003, at 21:28:25
I just had to up my dose of topamax to 50mg today. I have to go to 75 next week, then 100 the next. Then a week after that, the doctor will add another med. That means I will be taking effexor, prevacid, topamax, xanax, and whatever the new one is. Does every anxiety drug have an "x" in it?
I just took my topamax, and my comprehension is slow. I can normally type pretty well, but I find myself thinking about the letters.
I really want to see a therapist. If it wasn't for my two kids (which are living with their father for a year), I think I would rather be dead. No one really realizes what this is like. I am tired of putting up an act. It's making me worse. I cannot hold it in anymore. I don't even know who I am talking to here. Myself, or am I crying for help? Maybe I just want someone who feels exactly the way I do to talk to me.
I don't want to go to work anymore. I feel different than everybody. I stopped going to church cuz' I thought they were better than me. Can you believe I have been going through this for a year. Guess I was in denial.
Well all, have a great night. Going to try and get some sleep. Thanks for your help. : )
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