Posted by Ritch on February 18, 2003, at 9:21:06
In reply to Ritch, posted by Rainbowlight on February 18, 2003, at 2:28:29
> I know I kind of fell off the radar screen and never let ya know what happened with the meds (I've had a FOUR week cold, can you believe that? Antibiotics, yuck!) Anyway, breaking up the Zoloft dose really helped alot, no nausea. Or as you said the Elavil could be helping with that. I am off the Restoril and now sleeping on Elavil and 1 mg. Ativan (to be tapered to just Elavil). I am feeling pretty good. Weird, I came across a recent post of yours:
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> The success of SSRI medications probably has much to do with their ability to facilitate "disengagement" with "authoritative" others (parents,i.e.). When I tried Prozac for the first time in 1992, just a few weeks elapsed before I realized that I didn't really give a shit what my parents thought anymore. I stopped trying to convince them that their thoughts were "wrong" and my thoughts were "right". They just became other people that just happened to have different opinions that happened to be my parents. Just other people, not God.
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> Wow! This was EXACTLY what I was trying to describe to you as to why I felt so great on the Remeron/Zoloft combo. I was NUMB for a whole year. Didn't give a sh*t what the other family members said/did. I had actually convinced myself they were nicer and that things were better between us. Now that I am back to REALITY I see they suck as usual. BIG BIG letdown. The past year was a blur, lots of fun, but I have no reference of time. Like I cannot remember which month I went on vacation, when I bought my bird (even what SEASON I bought my bird, etc). I guess it has been like coming down off a high. Except the "numbness" wearing off has been really hard. I kinda liked liking my dysfunctional family, lol! What to do? Is numbness a state we should be looking for? My therapist calls it a "crutch" and thinks it's a good coping tool for bipolars. Seems now thought my meds aren't providing that crutch. Just reality. Eeeesh, what to do???Interesting. You are taking Zoloft (an SSRI), and you are "back" to reality and *not* feeling numb? Obviously it was the Remeron (not an SSRI) that created what you ascribe as a "numb" emotional state. I'm beginning to wonder if the semantics are twisted somehow. Could it be that what people ascribe as numbness (from meds) has to do just as much with a *lack* of rumination? IOW, not so much a *presence* of numbness, but an *absence* of rumination?
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