Posted by Mattkit on January 30, 2003, at 20:40:39
In reply to Re: I'm Sorry » blah, posted by bozeman on January 28, 2003, at 23:38:56
Keep writing, I like reading it and I am learning
from it. I know about the suffering and damn I wished I had the answer. I know about the feeling of desperation and being in a pdocs office that just doesnt get it. I always thought if I was a heroin junky I would want to go to help from someone who has done heroin cause they would have experienced the "feel"' I feel the same way about pdocs, I think alot of them have never had a bad day in their life and their trying to help me.
Dont waste too much time with the bad ones. Ive been there where the only thing keeping me from suicide is my heart,it keeps beating and I have to wake up (if Icould sleep) and go thru the whole shit again. My father is a schizophrenic
my mother the most beautiful person ever in my life died when I was 21. And I am left with a mind that is really screwed up. Im 36 now and have had alot of bad days the few good ones are worth it though. If you ever feel "the rest of the world" is normal dont believe it, the rest of the world is never (very few) happy either they
just deny it and live like shit (the9to5hell).
Be proud of who you are cause from what I have found the "strange people" and the alcoholics, and the drug addicts are the true nice people of this world they just havent figured out how to
get what is due to them while taking care of themselves along the way. Im not a women but I bet
there are a million girls that would rather be with you then their boring boyfriends or husbands
they have now. One thing else I have learned that
its up to me with my screwed up mind to find the answerand so far its a lifelong journey, I make alot of mistakes and I have alot of work to do
but will keep going. I just hope they come out with a I DONT GIVE A FUCK PILL SOON cause when you feel that way you live forever.