Posted by Anna Laura on December 7, 2002, at 5:47:44
In reply to Laying it on the line, booze............, posted by Jaynee on December 7, 2002, at 1:19:42
> Well, I am boozing it again. It's like once I start I can't stop. My husband hates me when I get like this, all I can say is I need to go to another level. The level of no worries. When I was on Celexa I didn't drink at all. It tried but it made me sick and I didn't feel the need. It's not like I drink all the time, its just when I start I can't stop. I want to go til I am no longer, no longer here. I think I am may be still depressed, but I think I am more bored than anything else. I just don't know. I think I am basically content, I am just a lost soul. What the hell. I guess there are worse things in life. I was told I have ADD, among other things and I am on no drugs other than booze, when I get going. I go usually for about 5 to 6 days straight and then I get crazy and drink for 2 to 3 day straight into complete nothingness. What is that about? Actually I have been pretty good for the past year or so, but then again I was on Celexa. Maybe I should try Strattera? I don't know. I am not about to do the Bi-polar thing.
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> Help......O.K., no "preaching", nor moralist guilt-trips here; i've been there, done that, and i know that phrases like "You should be thinking about your family!" and such simply don't work. I know by personal experience that guilt and shame only makes it worse, so i'll just give you some "technical informations".
They say that ADD "MIGHT" (not always) be related to pleasure seeking and alchol craving since there seems to be an underactive part in the brain, specifically in the basal ganglia region (i have got it, in fact i used to be a alcholic as a teen-ager other then having ADHD);
just sharing some personal experience: i used to get drunk 'till i dropped; didn't care about being more "social" , didn't want to be more secure in order to approach boys, didn't give a heck about self-confidence: i just wanted to drink until my self-awareness would dissipate, until i'd go "blank": my secret intent was total mental black out and i liked it. I can understand that.
O.K/ more technical things:The "Nucleus Accumbens", the brain structure related to pleasure and reward is down there also, (in the basal ganglia) and it's probably underactive also, that's why some ADD people (not everybody) try to compensate by stimulating that region with alcohol, food, risk-taking behaviours etc.
The problem is sensitization which means tolerance: alchol looses its effectiveness over time: i quit drinking something like 18 years ago (i'm 33 now) and i still can't get any pleasure from alcohol, i can't even enjoy a nice glass of wine when i dine out, nothing!
It's like my receptors had been "shut" or something;Most important thing: alchol intake might make your disorder worse (ADD, depression or anxiety) it could become chronic and treatment resistant and you don't want that, so be careful.
Take care
poster:Anna Laura
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