Posted by jonh kimble on November 4, 2002, at 20:44:37
I know Ive asked many times about what others have used for sp, and have gotten some great responses and thanks so much. But the problem is its still here. Oooooh yes. Yesterday when I heard my best friend was going to be stopping by and I immediatly ran to the liquor cabinet. it finally hit me that this is really hellish. I cant freakin talk to anyone!!!! I have a girl Ive loved for eight years and Ive probably said as much to her as most people say to their gas station attendant that they went to once. I feel suicidal ideation creeping and its really scaring me. I really dont want to die, but the pain of such lonliness and frustration adds up. If anyone could say anything to cheer me up I would love that.
About the meds, ive tried most all with of course no relief. Dexedrine put me in the perfect place for a day or two, and then nothing. I dont want to give up though. Is there anything people have found effective out there, perhaps off the beaten path. I have comorbid add, feeling exhausted alot, and the smallest little upset can send me into serious depression. (really hypersensitive) i need hope to live, and its hard to find. im going to try neurontin next, but i feel like i know it will be my next sugar pill. arghhh... in spite of all this, i wont give up. just the thought of one day laughing with a friend is such a happy thought. thanks for your time and thought everyone. TOM
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