Posted by Roo on September 30, 2002, at 14:37:42
Sometimes I try Ad's and I get worse. I've been really
bad depressed and me and my doctor agreed on trying Remeron
and I took it for a week at 15 mg's...I seemed to get worse...I
was suicidal and really agitatedly so...pacing around....having
a really hard time being in my skin. It's really terrible. It's the
sort of thing where I HAD to MOVE...I couldn't sit around...I went on
a two hour hike and just bawled the entire time thinking of different
ways to off myself and frustrated because I knew I wouldn't/couldn't do
that to my parents. Luckily,
I hung in there because I knew I was seeing my p-doc the next day.She thinks I'm cycling and that the antidepressant is making it worse.
She didn't think the answer was to go OFF the remeron, she thought the
answer was to add a mood stabilizer. So we're trying Topomax. I told her
I was scared to death to take another remeron for fear of getting that awful
feeling again. She said we could stablize first on the mood stabilizer, and then
add the remeron back in. I asked her if she was certain it wasn't just that
remeron was a bad drug for me. She didn't think that was it. It's true that
other antidepressants have made me feel suicidal and agitated before...
effexor...zoloft...serzone...I just don't know. At the same time, I'm really
depressed and need an antidepressant...and it's going to take time to build
up with the topomax (have to go slowly with that one)...We also discussed
ECT as an option. Scarey...I never thought I'd go down that road, but I do
need relief quick and I'm in a scarey/dangerous place.I'm so confused as to what's happening with my brain...a long time
ago, I used to be able to take an antidepressant and that was it, I felt
better. Now through the past 3 years or so, it's almost like I've developed
an allergy to them or something...I don't know what changed...I've read alot of threads in PB about Remeron and never read about
anyone else feeling WORSE on it, or agitated (at only 15 mgs) and suicidal...
it seems strange...but I swear it made me feel that way...I am scared to
take it again...do you think the p-doc is right...that all I have
to do is take a mood stabilizer and that the remeron will work
right for me then?Sorry so confusing...I "aint right" right now...please send
good thoughts my way...
poster:Roo
thread:121668
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