Posted by Ritch on September 29, 2002, at 13:43:24
In reply to Re: rapid cycling and mind noise, posted by fuji on September 29, 2002, at 10:07:01
It really seems to be a very reliable predictor for hypomania for me. It was getting rather bad the last several days, and last night I doubled my Depakote, doubled my Klonopin, and threw some Neurontin in and .... slept like a rock! I woke up feeling very calm and alert. I could sit and try not to think about anything and it was successful. No music loops, just quiet. ahhhh..
> I get this quite frequently and I always assumed I was just anxious over something that I either did or didn't know about. When it happens, there is nothing I can do to stop it and the song can loop one particular line for what seems like days on end. At least I am not the only one experiencing it. It seems to go when it is ready to go...
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> >The "mind noise" I get are fragments of intrusive music that loop and play over and over and drive me nuts. Also, any thinking processes that were going on while I was working seem to stay in there and continue working on problems trying to solve them somehow. It is like my short-term memory buffer is expanded way too much and doesn't get cleaned out. It is this "continuing to consider" type of thing. Sometimes I have to shut off the TV and not play any music CD's all day to let my mind "quiet out". All of this stuff only happens when I am having hypomanic symptoms. I was checking an epilepsy web-site and they mentioned avoiding excessive exposure to music to prevent seizures (I thought that was odd). There are some other things too.. lately I have been getting these "flashes" of an intrusive image of a car wreck I was in a long time ago. Another analogy of what it feels like is a walkie-talkie where the "squelch" control is altered and you start picking up all sorts of extraneous stuff that you don't want to consider or hear. Yet another analogy I thought of is staring into a pool of water at your reflection while it is raining. If it gets to raining too much all the wavelets from the rain breakup the image so much you can hardly recognize it.
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