Posted by momo3 on August 20, 2002, at 21:44:08
In reply to Re: Neurontin » momo3, posted by BarbaraCat on August 19, 2002, at 13:57:33
> Dear Holly,
> How in God's name do you manage to be a Mom to 3 kids while going through all you've described?
Well... the answer I usually give is good psychiatric drugs.... but you may know better than that ;-) I don't know if you know, but my oldest is 3 1/2 and my twins are 22 months. Sometimes I feel like a huge failure for them because while the other moms (and mothers of multiples) that I know are out taking their kids to play groups and play in the park dates at 10am, I couldn't imagine leaving my house before noon without help. Most of the time I am too overwhelmed by the prospect of getting them all fed, cleaned up, dressed and out to the car to even consider trying to leave the house. I am also afraid of skin-cancer (I have had a melanoma removed), and I don't take my kids outside during the day... especially not in the summer in TX.
The way I survive is essentially by routine, we have cereal every morning, watch the same cartoons, have pb&j for lunch and I force a nap for all 3 at the same time (although it's often just a quiet time for the 3 yr old). I am not very good a planning meals so we eat out alot in the evening when my husband comes home. My house is also one of the most baby proof places you will ever see...so I don't have to work too hard to keep them from hurting themselves.
> I'm too frazzled and fried to put one foot in front of the other
These are almost the exact words I used to try to explain paxil to my pdoc. I was too confused to even clean my kitchen (but I could remember how to make pb&j on paper plates).
The more I learn about this disorder the more I understand about my drinking habits. I stopped nursing the twins in December and didn't get a Dr appt until March, during that time I would start drinking mid-afternoon. I will say that the neurontin has curbed my desire to drink... and I am reasonably sure that my periods of heavy drinking that started in my teen years were a way of self medicating the mixed states. I took prozac as monotherapy for 9 years (off and on of course) - I knew I always took less than the prescribed dose, but I thought I was just being cheap. One time in college I went up to 40mg/day and resolved to remember to take it every day... I went completely nuts, I couldn't describe the feeling at all until doing the mood charting this year... now I get it.
> The confusion for me stems from the fact that when I start raging or weeping, there are perfectly good reasons for doing so.
Interesting... usually I will start raging or crying and intellectually I will know that I am being irrational about what has triggered it, but my reaction to it seems so out of my control. Things come flying out of my mouth that I don't even want to say.. I have lost more than one friend too over my sharp tongue.