Posted by colin wallace on July 6, 2002, at 13:16:22
In reply to Welcome back Colin, posted by johnj on July 6, 2002, at 0:00:29
Hi john,
Unfortunately,I've been too ill to look in for a while; a relative's illness sparked another deep depression, which has been amplifying the mood 'undulations' I've been experiencing, even when otherwise quite well.
Meds are still: zoloft 25mg, sam-e 200mg, diazepam 5mg, amitriptyline 10mg.Moods are awful;erratically moving from stupefied, contemplatively suicidal, absent, enraged (this is by far the worst),bitter and irritable, 'runaway' irrational thoughts- and even occasionally high (singing aloud etc.)
Have asked my doc. to dish out a bag of lithium (300mg of lithobid would do nicely!)or a smidgen of lamactil- but have to wait a (further!!) month for a psych. consultation.(I could ******* throttle my GP.)If his head was on fire, I wonder how he'd feel if I said 'sorry pal, I've got a fire extinguisher here, but you'll have to wait a few weeks until I can find someone authorised to use it!!'
I don't need a psych. phd to work out that I'm cycling, quickly and dangerously.Suspected I was bipolar 11 or something for a while.
Actually drove to a psych. hospital today, but it was such a dump (like a Victorian era asylum!)
that I quickly opted for the pub instead.And the beer tasted like U-boat engine oil.
****, I hate the UK!!!!How are things with you anyhow?
Col. -__-
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