Posted by sid on May 14, 2002, at 20:16:27
In reply to Re: What is Borderline Personality Disorder?, posted by katekite on May 14, 2002, at 13:07:00
My doc has been trying to convince me that I have BPD, but I don't think I have it. I've been trying to learn about this too and I'm somewhat annoyed at how vague descriptions are. What's the mmpi test?
Next time I see my doc (next week), I'll ask her why she thinks I have that problem.
I never attempted suicide, I like solitude, my life is pretty stable (too much even? I could have more fun... but I've been depressed so long, I can't solve everything at once...); I don't see how she thinks I have BPD. She would like me to participate in group therapy for people with BPD - I absolutely loathe group therapy. I tried it once and promised myself I'd never waste my time that way again. I spilled my guts, helped others, and they left, one after another, without even telling the group, i.e., violating rule #1 for participation. Out of 12 people, only I and another woman stood by all rules. We both felt used and left at the same time in the end. It was a pointless experience. I don't see why I'd try it again, especially not with people with BPD when I don't thing I fit the profile.
Anyway - any insight? I'm still puzzled with my doc. She's been quite antagonistic the last two times I saw her, and I'm not sure why. She also keeps saying that my desire to remain single and celibate is abnormal, while I think it's really none of her business. Overall, our next meeting should be interesting. Unless I don't feel like arguing with her and I just ask for my prescription and leave. I never asked her for therapy, and I'm not even sure she's qualified for it either - she is s GP after all.
I guess our next meeting is bothering me... I'm apprehending it. But I manage not to think about it much - I just take my Effexor XR each day and I feel fine.
Would a person with BPD say that? I have no clue. Still not clear to me what BPD is.- sid
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