Posted by Reneb on May 11, 2002, at 19:28:22
In reply to What is the point of being on or off, posted by Allen F. on May 11, 2002, at 18:29:58
> What is the point of being on or off ... I feel like my life is so screwed-up either way it doesn't matter. Its been so long since I have been happy that I can't remember it ... and I want to. I want to laugh, to feel joy, excitment, pleasure. I think the drugs have killed my emotions, good and bad, and left me in a barren land. It sucks!
> I don't like being tired all the time. I want a normal sleep schedule. I don't want to keep seeing doctors. I don't want to pour out my soul to someone only to find their answers are worse than mine. I am tired of being "diagnosed." I want to be a person, real, loved, happy, normal.
> Damn. Can't tell I am frustrated can you. Tommorrow is Mothers Day and I don't want to ruin it for my wife or mother. Tuesday is my 20th wedding anaversity, I have looked forward for this for a long time. But all I hear is how bad it is and I thinking of filing on Monday ... that sucks. I love my wife, but is love enough.
> Oh well, I have gone on way to long.
Hey Allen, you sound like you need some people to talk with. IF you would like some of us from here have formed a little support group at our own email address. If you would like to join us - just let me know. Reneeb724@earthlink.net
hope to talk soon,