Posted by Shanti on March 24, 2002, at 12:46:41
In reply to Re: Anyone had success on Effexor XR? , posted by Rrissa1317 on March 24, 2002, at 12:25:53
> I have 2 children still at home, ages 5 and 11. It upsets them to see me cry for no reason. I tell them I didn't know why I was crying, that I like the song. It only confused them further. If it were only me, I wouldn't care what the rest of the world thought of the way I acted or when I cried. But my children are everything to me. I want them to have a semi "normal" mother. So far I haven't been able to give that to them. I see the effects of my depression in the way they act and re-act. That is what bothers me the most. Until I had children, I had never tried AD's. I am who I am (then). If you couldn't deal, there's the door. I had no friends and preferred it that way. Still do. But docs and society tell me that is unhealthy, not normal. I would build my nest and stay there if it were up to me. But it's not. My husband has said that it I don't "get over this and get out and live" it will be the end of us. sorry...didn't mean to spill. I'll stop there.
please don't give up, your words are my life once a month for 2-4 days depending on how well i can keep things in check (i'm just finishing this one) ssemed worse than before (they all do) so since i do everything backwards i figure that the worse it gets the better i will be for next time. i learned a lot this time around I just hope i remember it for the next one
ah your husband, i won't even go there right nowbut don't give up i felt that way too and literally stayed in my house unless i had to go out. it took a few years but i am finally getting out and "lliving" i marvel at the people who can do this on a daily basis i used to get really jealous but not anymore. i just tell myself that it isn't my time just yet and then i continue to work at making myself feel better (i don't think we will ever be "rid" of this / we just need to know how to incorporate it into our lives.
you didn't write too much, thank you i needed that as i was sitting here in tears since my husband and i just finished arguing.
must go now,
hope people will be here tonight (i know it's oscar night - im gonna turn my tv so i can watch& type at the same time)
peace
shanti
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