Posted by Survivor on August 9, 2001, at 0:54:58
In reply to Re: Neurontin, posted by Survivor on August 5, 2001, at 3:08:32
Well, I wrote to my doctor explaining my concerns about the Neurontin and don't know if I'll hear anything from him before our next appointment at the end of the month. Meanwhile, I feel like I'm slipping off the deep end of depression again and increasing apathy is setting in. I've been taking Wellbutrin 200 mg/day for about six years now and it's helped as much as anything (except Prozac, but I couldn't tolerate the sexual side effects). Unfortunately, that isn't saying much.
Are halfway measures, treatments that "almost" work, or endless experimentation with combinations of new pills really all that I can expect after 30 years of "treatment"?
My brother, who is a psychotherapist, called me last night mostly to nag me about my anorexia (unintentional - who wants to eat?) but also mentioned some new antidepressant/mood stabilizers coming out that are somewhat like second-generation tricyclics. He couldn't recall the names of the drugs, so I think they'd be really new. I read someone mention a drug called Topomax (sp?) I've never heard of - is this one of these new drugs? I don't think my brother meant Remeron or Celexa, but is there anything new under the sun worth trying - or reason to? I'm about as crazy as I can manage and the idea of wading through more unfamiliar, thought-fogging, weight-increasing, drugs makes me want to just give up.
I think I'm falling down again, but I really don't have the energy to particularly care. If it wasn't for my absolutely normal husband (who finds all these meds questionable anyway), I don't think I could find a reason to stick around much longer...I haven't felt such despair in a long time. My life has never been as good as it is now, and yet I feel stalked by this relentless depression that can wait out all the happiness in the world.
Suggestions or comments (about things that have helped you; I'm pretty clear on how nuts I am) are welcomed.
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