Posted by sotrue on May 3, 2001, at 15:57:55
I WAS PRESCRIBED TO ADDERALL BY MY DOCTOR 2 AND A HALF YEARS AGO. AT FIRST, I TOOK THE NORMAL DOSAGE BUT SLOWLY OVER THE NEXT FEW MONTHS BEGAN TO "DOUBLE" AND "TRIPLE" UP ON THE AMOUNTS. I WANTED TO EXPAND THAT EUPHORIA FEELING....BUT EVENUALLY, THE EXPERIMENTATION BECAME AN UMBELIEVIBLY DRUG INDUSED COMA. IN TWO YEARS I WENT FROM USING 5MG OF ADDERALL TWICE A DAY, TO EVENTUALLY FORGING MY OWN PRESCRIPTIONS TO OBTAIN 180 5MG TABLETS WHICH IW OULD DELINQUISH IN 48 HOURS, SOMETIMES LESS. I STARTED "NEEDING" IT TO PERFORM ANY AND EVERY TASK YOU CAN IMAGINE. I WENT FROM A SIZE 10 TO A SIZE 4, I LOOKED SKELETAL AND DISGUISTING, A BANISHED MYSELF FORM THE WORLD AND MY LIFE, I SPENT HOURS UPON HOURS AND MONTHS UPON MONTHS TRYING TO PERFECT THE MOST RIDICULOUS PROJECTS THAT WOULD NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING, WHILE I IGNORED THE IMPORTANCE OF LIFE'S CHALLENGES. I BEGAN ORDERING $1000'S OF DOLLARS WORTH OF SEXY CLOTHES FROM POPULAR CATALOGS BECAUSE I KNEW (OR THOUGHT) I COULD HAVE THE SAME IF NOT SIMILAR BODIES AS THOSE SKINNY MODELS ON THE COVERS DID, AS LONG AS I STAYED A FREQUENT USER. I WOULDN'T SLEEP FOR DAYS (OR EAT), I BECAME A COMPLETE BITCH TO EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING ARPOUND ME - - I LOST MY SOUL TO THIS ADDICTION, UNTIL......A FEW MONTHS AGO, I FORGED A SLOPPY PRESCRIPTION AND WAS ARRESTED AT THE PHARMACY. I THANK GOD FOR THAT DAY - A DAY I THOUGHT WOULD NEVER COME, BECAUSE I NEVER THOUGHT I COULD LIVE WITHOUT THIS DRUG FOR EVEN A WEEK. AFTER $5,000 IN LAWYER FEES AND A SMALL PERIOD TIME INCARCERATED, I AM HAPPY TO SAY THAT I AM CLEAN, HEALTHY, MOTIVATED, AND AM EXPECTING MY FIRST CHILD NOVEMBER 24, 2001 WITH MY HUSBAND. I NEEDED A BRICK WALL TO SHATTER THE BROKEN PATH I WAS TRAVELING DOWN - I FEEL LIKE MYSELF AGAIN. WITH A NEW SENSE OF SPIRIT (WITHOUT USING ANY DRUG), MOBILITY, AND HAPPINESS I THOUGHT I HAD BANISHED FOREVER BUT LUCKILY, DID NOT. I WELCOME MYSELF FROM THE DARKNESS, KNOWING THAT LIFE IS GOOD, THE FUTURE AWAITS ME, AND I'M DOING IT ALL ON MY OWN....STRONGER NOW THAN EVER BEFORE.
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thread:61537
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