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Re: To Kath from KERRY B (Reply to yours)

Posted by kerry B on July 14, 2000, at 1:04:02

In reply to To KERRY (Reply to yours) » kerry B, posted by Kath on July 13, 2000, at 8:36:18

> > > > > > > > > Hi Kath,
> > > > > > > > Thanks for your message. I'll start by saying that I did have my hair fixed up. I had about 4 inches taken off as it was all dead ends and looked quite a mess but now it's much better and feels better too. I don't feel so bad about it now and it is easier to look after, just shoulder length now!
> > > > > > > > I am the same as you with spending time on here, I just can't seem to get away and when I look at the time, I think, "where's it gone"? But I love it on here, the people are so very nice and helpful. I think, if it had not have been for this, I would have been very alone but finding this site (I don't know how I did) really helped me understand a lot of what I was going through and the support was tremendous!!!!!!
> > > > > > > > I am glad your daughter has realized the benfit of the meds. It is very confusing when you start to feel different, actually funtioning and as she has done, going of the meds, I have done that too in the past with not very good results. I thought I was on top of the world and so happy, but it didn't take long for my world to come crashing down!! I think it takes a lot of understanding to know what it feels like to feel normal if you know what I mean, I find it very hard even today to know how I'm supposed to feel and what a normal feeling is. You sound like a great mum, so supportive of her, I think she is a lucky girl to have you!!!
> > > > > > > > Sorry about your son. My eldest son is also into the marijuana and the last time I saw him, he confessed to me that he was. As a matter of fact, he snuck out the back and had it and when he came back inside I looked at him and gently confronted him about it. I just told him to be careful, that there are dangers and terrible side affects that can come from it and that I am always here if he needs to talk or just have support. He was O.K about it, inside my heart I was crying but I couldn't let him know that.
> > > > > > > > It's good that your son admitted to taking the $160.00 from you, and I agree with you, it would be a bad idea to give him the money his bio-dad sends you because we know where that would go.
> > > > > > > > Sometimes, and in situations like this, we have to be cruel to be kind!
> > > > > > > > Sometimes they can hold a grudge against us thinking we are the meanest mums in the world but I think let it be that way because in the end, they find the right direction along the way. They might go through some really tough times but that is the only way for them to learn. Parents are not the doorway to easy street as some kids think.
> > > > > > > > The only real way to sort out the things that are bothering him is to talk about them, that's easy to say because they don't take advice lightly, but you never know, he might just turn around when things get too much for him one day and ask for help.
> > > > > > > > All we can do as parents, is be there for them, as you are doing, do the cruel to be kind bit and pray!!!!
> > > > > > > > Hope this has been of some help. I am only going by my own experience in these matters and they seem to have worked for me, not all the time of course, but alot of it. I shall hold you and your kids in my prayers if you like and hope things improve for you and for them.
> > > > > > > > Hang in there! You sound like a wonderful mum and person so don't let it get you down, just take one day at a time and when you wake up each morning, say a little prayer for the events that will take place that day and hand them over.
> > > > > > > > Better go now, I have to do the lovely job of ironing the kids clothes so as I can pack them for their week with Grandma!!!!!Bye for now.....
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> > > > > > > > Kerry
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> > > > > > > Hi Kerry - THX alot for your kind words. If I'm objective I acknowledge that I'm a good mum, but then I thing 'ya, but if should have done this & this etc. etc.' My daughter has told me how glad she is that I'm her Mom & how she tells her friends about me & they say "Wow, your Mom is so neat." That really makes me feel pretty good, especially right now! Thanks for sharing & for supporting the "cruel to be kind" school. I'm feeling pretty good today, but haven't seen our son yet today & he camped on the patio again last nite. I guess I'll have to go out in the night & speak to him!! Oh well.
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> > > > > > > I'm excited that you got your hair done! I have chin-length naturally-curly (VERY) hair & recently, I went to the hair dresser & said I'm so SICK of always having it the same way!!!!! He dried it with the blow-dryer & a round brush & it was smooth & straight with a slight curl under & made bangs going sideways. I LOVED IT!!! I got it done a few times like that I truly love it. I can't do it myself, so just touch it up with the brush & blow-dryer & wait AGES to wash it. The minute it's damp out my hair goes "BOING!" into curls! I wanted to get it done again, but it's been rainy alot & it would be a waste of money because BOING! Anyway, I do know now that I can do that. It feels wonderful to have my "straight" hair blow in the wind.
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> > > > > > > Thx for sharing about your son. Apparently marijuana today is massively stronger than in my teen days. Therefore it has a way stronger effect on users. I've heard this from various sources.
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> > > > > > > Hope all your ironing & packing etc. goes well. Take wonderful care of yourself.
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> > > > > > > Hugs. Kath :-)
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> > > > > HI KERRY B. - I'm answering throughout your post & will mark my entries with .............
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> > > > > > Hi Kath!!
> > > > > > Glad to hear you are feeling a bit better today.
> > > > > > You ARE SO LUCKY to have curly hair! I pay a fortune to get my hair permed so it's curly, my hair is flat straight and I have to style it every day with the blow dryer and the faithful old round brush I have! It's a real pain!!!
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> > > > > ..................I know, people always say I'm so lucky, but it does what it wants to & that's not often what I'd like. I did go today & got it done. Isn't that funny; you curl yours with a round brush & blow dryer & I get mine done that way at the hairdresser's & then smooth it out with the round brush & dryer! Oh well, seems like most people aren't satisfied with their hair. I suppose with my permanent permanent, at least when I go swimming I just let it dry after & it looks like it always does.
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> > > > > > Just wondering why your son camps out on the patio. Is it because of the hours he keeps or he just prefers it that way?
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> > > > > ..............I don't know where I posted about it. Our son smokes pot daily, is unpredictable modd-wise (depends where on the drug-use cycle he is). He's been attending a day-treatment/school program. We've been having family councelling there, but all he's interested in is US making changes. He doesn't seem interested in HIM making any changes ALSO. A couple of weekends ago my son was gone for 4 days without letting us know his whereabouts. It turned out that he'd gone to a town about an hour & a bit from here with a friend from school & just didn't let us know. We had the police looking for him & tried to keep from getting too frantic. Then last weekend, we were planning to go away for the weekend; told our son he was invited to his sister's & we'd take him there - that if he didn't go, we needed him to make other arrangements, because we didn't want him or his friends in the house. When we got home, he's come in through the basement window & the pot smoke in his room was such that if you wanted to get stoned, just go in there & breathe. The next day (last Mon) we told him that because of how things have been going for the past months, we've decided that if there is a major breaking of our house rules, Strike 1 will be 2 full days off our property, Strike 2 will be 4 full days, Strike 3 will be find somewhere else to live. We said that if a serious enough event happened, it would be directly to Strike 3. We live in Canada. He is 16 & parents are legally responsible for providing shelter until out children are 16. Well, the very day after we told him about the Strikes, he was confrontational with me; demanding; disrespectul & stole $160. from my purse! So we went directly to Strike 3. I put some of his stuff in a knapsack & put his sleeping bag out in a plastic bag. Since then, he had been coming onto the patio after we were in bed, sleeping on the lounge in his sleeping bag & leaving before we got up. Last nite & the nite before, he slept elsewhere. He has a list of resources for teens, shelters, his social worker at the school, etc. & a phone card. He's been back to get his bag etc. & wasn't respectful. He's tried to get me to give him the support $ that I receive from his bio-Dad; he's tried to get me to give him money; etc. So that's where we're at. I've told him that even though he probably hates us right now & it probably feels like we hate him, we do love him. I've told him that if he has a plan in place & no way to get to a resource center or job-hunting, he can call me & we'll see what we can work out. He told me that he has somewhere he can live if he gets a job. I am completely worn down by his situation over the past year & a half (at least).
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> > > > > > When my 18 yr old was living with us a while ago, I could never sleep properly, sort of subconsciously waiting to hear him come home and when he did, be it whatever hour in the morning, I would get up and have a chat with him, not a confronting chat but a "as a matter of fact chat" and he'd end up telling me bit by bit of what he did and where he was then all I had to do was put all the pieces together and I'd have the full
> > > > > story without him even realizing.
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> > > > > .......My son & I communicate pretty well & he tells me alot of things, but the drugs get in the way BIG_TIME. I never know who I'm going to be talking to - my nice kid, who I like, or some confrontation, disrepectful jerk. (He's called me a F-ing Bi--- etc.)
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> > > > > > We always have to be one step ahead and it's a tiring job. He no longer lives here any more, he moved back to the city with his brother.
> > > > > > Not blaming him or anything, but I think having him live with us for 7 months, trying to get him an identity as he had nothing, and trying to educate him about the real world took it's toll on my health. I lasted out while he was here, I always put on a happy face even though I was very depressed, but now, I finally broke down, the build up became too much and so I became ill again.
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> > > > > ..............I know! I think he's what caused my anxiety to get worse & worse. Now that he's out of the house, I feel so calm. Yes, I'm upset about it sometimes, but I don't feel as if I don't know what to expect, & I don't keep having his "stuff" to deal with.
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> > > > > > Anyway, we as mothers, have to take care of ourselves and stop being last all the time because if we become ill, who is there to run the household? I wouldn't hand it over to my hubby, he just has no idea!!!!! I think bringing up kids is like sailing a ship, we are the captains, we say the orders and show direction as long as the crew will obey. We begin in calm waters, a storm comes along but we manage to sail through it as best we can and then after the storm passes us by, we hit sunshine. It's a never ending journey but it is an adventure!!!!! That's the way I look at it! Hope I make sense!
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> > > > > .........Makes ALOT of sense. I don't feel like I want the "teenage adventure" right now, or for the near future - I should say the "drug-using-tennage adventure". They're 2 different things, for sure.
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> > > > > > Well, my kids left for grandma"s a little while ago so I am alone and I really don't know what to do with myself! Strange how you look forward to the break and when you get it you feel lost!!!
> > > > > > We are having friends over this-afternoon so I guess I could get ready for that.
> > > > > > O.K. I'll go now, keep smiling and big hugs to you!!!
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> > > > > > Kerry :)
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> > > > > I hope it doesn't take you too long to get into the swing of what to do with all that TIME for yourself!!. Hope you & your friends have fun.
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> > > > > Take care. Hugs, Kath
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> > > Hi Kerry - I'll answer throughout as follows.........
> > > First of all, I put your name in CAPS so it'll be easy for you to locate a post for you, as you mentioned that you have trouble locating them sometimes. Hope this helps......>
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> > > > Hi Kath,
> > > > Wow, my second day without the kids and I'm finally used to it now!! When they left yesterday, I felt lost and lonely so I moved two rooms around and that made me feel better!
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> > > .............I tend to tidy inside drawers, cupboards, etc. when I'm really upset; seems to help me feel that things are in order. Odd that I don't tackle the piles of papers, articles, books, etc. that await me & make me feel disordered! Oh well.
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> > > > How are you today????..............I'm not too bad, but sorta down, I guess, if I'm honest. I'm going to have to re-think my "kindness" thing. Yesterday morning my son was on the patio again & I told him that I had some things to tell him re: the extent of my involvement in his job/shelter-hunting, & would he like to buy some breakfast & go out to my "garden-plot" at the edge of town & eat at the picnic table there. I let him come in to have a shower first. He was fine with that (was probably hungry). However, I realized today, after dropping him off in the very next town to us on the understanding that he was going to look at the "job-board" - he isn't really interested in getting a proper job & a place to stay. He wants to look into a 1-day a week job & says he doesn't want to ruin his summer (!!!). He also said that he doesn't want to put himself fully into looking for a job because if he can't get one he would be really upset & give up. I think he might be somewhat insecure about getting a job, but I also think that by letting him shower/taking him for breakfast I'm giving mixed messages & not establishing clear enough bondaries. I'm really disappointed that he isn't REALLY trying to change his situation. I don't like the thought of not letting him have a shower etc. but I think I have to make the boundaries clearer :-(
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> > > > I don't know whether it's a boy thing, but they just can't seem to understand where we are coming from. We can be kind and patient or we can be angry but they always seem to see the problem as being us.
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> > > .............Yup; seems so, although my now-lovely 24-yr-old daughter was somewhat similar.
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> > > > I like this strike thing you have going. He seems to understand that, but he must have somewhere else to go to shower etc or is he allowed in for that. Where does he eat?
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> > > .........I think he gets his friends to share if they go to restaurants; has lunch at friends' houses, etc. He tends not to eat all that much anyway. I think the only showers he's had are 2 here. I guess he goes to the washroom at friends' houses or coffee shops.
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> > > > It is hard being a mother because they always reflect it back onto us but don't worry yourself about it, it will all change. My eldest 21, used to balme me for his dad & I splitting up, that went on for a long time but now, he is ok and we have a great relationship. Things can only get better.
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> > > .........Thanks - at least I have my daughter t0o look at & realize "hey, she turned out fine".
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> > > > That's what I wanted to ask you: Have you ever read a book by Barbara Johnson called "Stick a Geranium in your hat and be Happy"? She is an american woman and runs a ministry called Spatula Ministries. It is such a good book and I think it would benefit you right now. See if you can find it, it is everywhere over here, mainly in Christian Book stores, I highly recommend it for you. She went through troubles with her sons so you might pick up some tips (hers were a little different but give it a go), it has some good things on how to get through ordeals and stay on top.
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> > > ..............Thanks, Kerry - sounds just perfect for me right now; I'll look into it right away.
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> > > > I think you did the right thing when he stole the money out of your purse. I know I would do the same thing. It means they can't be trusted and I think it takes a fair while until you can have that trust again. How long has he been on pot? Was it one year now? In my experience, that's early days, sorry, don't want to bring you down.
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> > > .........Yes, I can't trust him now, especially when he says, "well, if you don't trust me, what's the point in me trying to be trustworthy?" I think that was his attitude when he took the money. He's been a weed-head for about almost 2 years now. (Sorry for the name-calling, but somehow it sometimes helps me to do that. I don't say it to him personally!)
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> > > I feel that it doesn't agree with him. What was he like before he started on it? Was he respectful and reliable and trustworthy? It's hard to watch a family member slide backwards.
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> > > ...........He has ADD (Not ADHD); is artistic, unmotivated unless he likes something, lazy (would rather throw an empty cookie package on the rec room floor than put it in the waste-basket 5 feet away from him for ex.), not too reliable although he had been getting better, was totally trustworthy regarding stealing from us & that type of thing...so were his friends. You're right, it IS hard to see this happening. It's especially hard because before I went on holiday a few weeks ago, he was sick for over a week & was drug-free for 9 days & our relationship was getting so nice. Then he got better, out seeing his friends again, smoking up again & unpredictable emotionally again.
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> > > If only he would seek help, but I guess he feels he's ok.
> > > > Has his appearance changed? What you could do, when he's in an approachable mood, is show him a photo of what he looked like before and what he looks like now. It could be a shock tactic?
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> > > .......He did go to the day-treatment/school thing, but probably only so he could live here. He doesn't seem to think there's a problem. I thing he has to hit a "bottom" & hopefully it won't be TOO low, but who knows? He is thinner, but doesn't look sick etc. at this point.
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> > > > If he disappears for days on end, don't worry. He's done it before and always come back, so don't worry, let's hope one day he'll come home with his "tail between his legs", so to speak), and apologize for what he's done.
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> > > ..........Thanks, Kerry; I'm getting 'way better about leaving him in God's hands. I figure God loves him more than even I do. I am not a churchy person, but I do believe strongly in a loving God, whose love is 'way bigger than human love.
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> > > > In this situation, time is the only solution, time and patience and understanding. I'm not adding sympathy because they have their choice as to what to do with thier lives and if they choose the hard road, they have to suffer the knocks that come with it,
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> > > ..........I agree with the above. I think he has to learn by the knocks that will come with that hard road. My difficult job right now, is to let him walk that hard road & be strong in it (it's hard sometimes). The think that helps me is to remember how it feels when he's snotty to me.
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> > > So dear Kath, please do not let this get you down.
> > > > You deserve your happiness in life, you have done all you can from birth until now so it is up to him to pull himself together and take a good look at what he is doing to the ones that love him!!!!!
> > > > Agree!!!!
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> > > ...........You got it, Kerry. I'll try to stay strong & keep my mind otherwise occupied & I realized today that it's important for me NOT to see him. If he needs to speak to me he'll have to do it by phone. I'll be telling him that next time I do see him. That will help me alot, I think.
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> > > > Well, I'll go now and do some puzzles, they keep my mind open!!!!
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> > > .............What kind? I like crossword puzzles. Could do them for ages; find them very relaxing. I hope you're doing some nurturing for yourself.
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> > > > Please take it easy and know that you are in my prayers!!!!!!
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> > > Thanks for your prayers. You're in mind also. Hey, be sure to do stuff you enjoy okay?? (Well, maybe moving furniture is one of them.) You've earned a break; please take good care of yourself during this time. Let me know. I hope the weather is nice for your "time off".
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> > > Hugs to you.
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> > > Kath
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> > Hi Kath,
> > How are you today? Not stressing out I hope and if you are, hope you are doing some de-stress exercises!!!!!
> > I had a brilliant idea of fixing up the bathroon curtains but, what a disaster!!! They are lace and trying to sew them when you haven't got the talent for sewing, it turned out all wrong, but I'm leaving them up and I'm trying to convince myself I did a good job!! Also cleaned out the back cupboards I painted yeseterday, that was a half day job in itself.
> > So I haven't actually got around to doing something for myself as you can see. I think I'm hyped up again!!!!!
> > Anyway, you let your son in for a shower and offered him money for breakfast. I can understand you feeling like you're sending mixed messages but are they really? More often than not, he is left to fend for himself which you are sticking to most of the time and that's good.
> > So, now, after you have shown him some of your motherly kindness, he can now go back to sleeping on the patio and eating with his mates and stick to it.
> > Maybe somewhere in his mind he is torn between the two, drugs and friends and the other the comforts of home and at the moment you are battling against the first. Are his friends bad influences, do their parents know what's going on or are they experiencing the same as you?
> > It might be worth putting a feeler out just to see what it's like for them?
> > As for him getting a job, my son would do anything not to get one while he was staying here. He eventually got one but after about a month, he would leave, taking his lunch I'd made him with him and go and see his friends all day and then come home for his meal, not always though.
> > I ended up putting two and two together, why he wasn't wearing his work boots, why his pay was so short and eventually called him a liar to his face and demanded an explanation as to why he treated me like that as I was getting up at 5am to get him off to so called work!
> > If your son is using the excuse that it will ruin his summer if he gets a job, be sure that when the next season comes, there will be an excuse for that too.
> > Kids! They want everything for nothing these days, they think the world owes them a favour, well, in my opinion, they are the ones that owe!!!
> > Kath, I know it is hard and sometimes we ask ourselves, "where have I gone wrong", but we haven't gone wrong. We weren't issued a "hand book on kids, life and problems", all we have is our intuition and our instincts and those are what we go by. So whatever and however you treat your son, whether it be with kindness or the strike way, it's your gut feeling that you have to go by!!!! What you feel is right, then it must be right because he is your son and nobody knows him better than you!!!! Agree!!!!!
> > My sister has a son who is 25 now and he is the same but a bit more extreme, drugs, gambling & alcohol. She has tried everything with him as I have too in talking to him and always listening to him and telling him advice, but, he still just does what he does and he won't change until it's HIS time to change.
> > Don't worry about your son. He's doing fine and when he realizes the value of money and that nothing comes for free forever, he then might get motivated to get a job or doing something about his situation.
> > I really feel for you Kath, I really do, but I have a feeling, things will get better. Have you looked into that book yet? It was marvellous for me!!!!
> > O.K. I have two days left of my holiday and actually haven't done anything FOR MYSELF and haven't got a clue what to do. Maybe tonight I might have that candlelight bath that I look forward to but never get the time to do it?
> > If you have any suggestions let me know as I am out of practice at doing things for me!!!
> > And I would never tell you to mind your business, you are too nice to say that too!
> > O.K, better go now, hang in there Kath and use that Mother's intuition we are fortunate enough to have!!!!! (I think mine shuts down sometimes)!
> > Bye for now.
> > Love & hugs to you!!!!
> > Kerry
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> Hi Kerry - Boy, was your letter right-on. I talked with my hubby last nite & he was saying the same as you about I didn't screw-up by letting him have a shower & giving him some food; that he mainly is on the street. I'm going to print a copy of this post from you from today because it's very supporting & affirming of what I'm doing. I shall remain strong about the very bottom-line of it and that's that he's not living here. I've realized that my boundaries are that he doesn't leave his stuff sitting around of the patio - they must go out of my sight in the shed; he's not to be "in my face" - it worked for me when he came here after we retired & he left early in the morning. I'll tell him the first time I see him; he didn't sleep here last nite. I realized the stress was 1) from thinking I'd given him mixed messages 2) from having his stuff in sight 3) from dealing in person with him too frequently. Thx so much for your in-put - all of it. He has various friends. Some are having more minor problems with their kids; some don't care what their kids do. I don't really think his friends are a bad influence; some have more respect (or fear, I'm not sure) for their parents; some have part-time jobs. I think my son might be worse than some. Some of his acquaintances are worse than him (acquaintances as opposed to friends). Thx for sharing about your son, and you're right about excuses not to work. I'm sure it'll be a different one all the time with him. He hates the thought of working. He had a bad experience for his first job. It was at White Rose at Christmas. He didn't have the self-confidence to ask for fewer hours, so he was working 39-hour weeks etc. & he did very well, but he hated it & ended up simply not showing up for a couple of days & then when he did go back he quit the next day. Doesn't it suck when they take advantage like your son did about you getting him off & him not even going to work. I hate that. But, it's up to us to take care of ourselves. You're so right about everything you said about kids.
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> I haven't had time to get the book yet, but it's on my today's list.
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> Are you still hyped up? I'm glad you left the curtains up. They probably look fine but just not what you had in mind for them to look like.
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> Okay, take a deep, slow breath & relax & think if there are any of these things you'd like to do. I don't know if you have extra money to spend, but I'll include some $-ideas & some non-# ideas.
> I might already have mentioned some or all in another post. If it's a nice day, take a meal outside to sit on a lawnchair & eat it or to a park if you don't have a yard; listen to the wind or birds; include favorite foods or beverage. Go to the library & poke through books; take out a book with beautiful pictures to just leaf through & not even have to read; take out a book you think you'd like; if you like cooking, look through the cookbooks & see if there's one that you'd like to take out to try or to just get some different ideas; take out some cassettes or CD's or our library even has video-tapes...a great way to get to use stuff free!! Have a candle-lit bubble-bath & take in a cup or mug of herb tea or tea. Go for a walk & pick wildflowers for yourself or go to a florist & buy a few loose flowers to put in a vase for yourself. Buy yourself an item of makeup or cream or bath stuff or pretty talcum powder or perfume etc. Go to the dollar store & choose a couple of little things for yourself. Go for a long walk out in nature if you can. Light candles for suppertime & put nice music on. In the evening light the room with candles only (buy a couple if you don't have any) & put relaxing music on; feet up; read a nice book. Play Scrabble or a favorite game with your hubby if he'd like. Be romantic together if that feels okay. Meet a friend who you really like for coffee or a walk in the park. Write down something you like about yourself (this can be a hard one for some people) & put it on a sheet of paper with happy faces or flowers & tape it up where you'll see it all day. Play music that you liked as a teen LOUD; maybe dance to it. Go to a movie either alone or with hubby or friend. Rent a video to watch alone or with someone. There's some ideas...you might have "spin-off" ideas. Ask me if you need more - I'll have to rack my brain a bit - or someone else might have good ideas also.
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> Do try to do something though, okay? Take care & even if you don't do alot just for you (although I hope you do) at least try to feel the freedom of every second & just enjoy having no kiddies around. Enjoy the Peace & Quiet!!
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> Thinking of you. Hugs, Kath


Hi Kath,
I' glad you found my message helpful, at least I make sense to someone!hahaha!
Thanks so much for the tips, but you'll never guess what happened! 8.30pm last night, hubby and I arrived home from eating out to a message for us to come and pick the kids up as they weren't settling! Great I thought, there goes my day of peace! So we brought them home and I don't get the time to do anything nice for myself. Typical. Mothers are always the ones that lose out for some reason!!!!!
I like your positive outlook on getting your son's stuff out of your face. Well, he's not living there (just using the patio as a halfway house) so why should you have to see his stuff laying around the place, you're right, get him to remove it!!!
It's sad that his first job experience was a bad one. Those kind of things can really damage self-esteem and trust in finding a new job, but these are the things he's going to have to face. We have all gone through job interviews only to be knocked back, time and time again, but each time it happens, we can look at the experience and learn from it, so he has to get back some order into his life and then the esteem will return, not to mention get off the pot!!!
You must really be crying inside due to the situation you are in with your relationship with him!
Sometimes I'm at a loss as to how the kids of today think! They virtually are users, not only of their family, but in everything they can. They should be saving for that car they want or the house that they will one day own, things like that. They seem to be able to only focus on the moment, not the past, not the future, but what they are doing that minute or where are they going to get their next lot of drugs from. I don't know how they cope or function like that, I know I couldn't.
I feel you are just going to have to ignore (that sounds harsh) him until he gets his act together,. Why should you have to go through it with him, it's his life and it is in his hands, nobody elses! If you want to have contact, leave a notebook and pen out on the patio and write messages to each other. That way, you can sleep easier instead of waiting around for him to show up. I did that in the end with my son and it worked. I found that it was easier for him to express himself that way instead of being verbally confronted by me. It's good for you too as you can write exactly what you are feeling without becoming lost for words with a face to face confrontation. Just a thought!
Well, I've got that off my chest for you, I will keep those wonderful ideas you gave me, I actually printed them out so I can refer back to them.
The kids go back to school next Tuesday and I have actually kept the house looking spic and span so I will be able to do something nice during their first four days back.
Thanks Kath!!!!!
Bye the way, how is hubby coping with the situation with your son? If he's anything like mine, he wouldn't let it get the better of him even though he would be concerned. Mine tends to leave all the work and worrying up to me GOOD OL' MUM!!!!!!
O.K. got to go now as I have my appointment soon with the post traumatic stress therapist, hope it goes alright!!!!!
You are always in my prayers, I'm not a churchy person either but I strongly believe in God.
Bye for now,

Kerry.


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