Posted by dj on July 6, 2000, at 23:44:38
In reply to With all due respect.....Y RU Here?, posted by shar on July 6, 2000, at 22:55:47
> With all due respect, and I mean that, and I am not trying to be antagonistic, I noticed that some of the people in the above posts and in other posts on this board, have indicated that they don't experience depression, anxiety, bipolar, etc. So, no need for therapy or meds, >or both, they (I suppose) would be "normals".
In my case, Shar, I have experienced severe major depressions as I've indicated above and elsewhere and still experience some depressive symptoms when feeling stressed though generally I am dealing much better with stress these days than I have in the past. And I have used ADs, had some one on one counselling intermittantly over the past 25 years as well as lots of different group dynamic experiences, done much reading and self exploration.
Around this time last year, I discovered the board when I was undergoing MAJOR depression. The folks and info. on the board helped me sort through some of the AD issues when I was considering going back on them, at my PDoc's advice. I received conflicting advise from some group counsellors whom knew me over a period of time. I did eventually do the ADs, after expermenting with several types and eventually ended up on a combo. of Wellbutrin and Prozax for several months.
However, once I stabilized thanks to the ADs and the counselling (from various sources) I eventually became wary of the negative side effects I was experiencing from the ADs and when I felt ready, phased them out, knowing I had successfully done so in the past and based on advice from a number of sources and what I was experiencing and had experienced in the past.
I am still dealing with many of the pressures that led to my major depressions but am dealing with them much better and generally with few indications of other than sometimes generally fleeting depression and anxiety more and more which I have come to recognize as my personal patterns or "algorithms" for going into and out of those cycles.
However, I am still sorting through and making sense of these patterns. And coming back to PB, for a while and some of the discussions here have helped me with this sifting and sorting of patterns. Some of the recent feedback I've recieved from Noa and Cass who experienced my sometimes less than gracious patterns previously, before taking a break from PB which I will probably do again soon, indicates to me that they've witnessed the progress which I've experienced.
My nature is to be very curious, scientific in my examination of issues and open to various possibilities. And when obssessive, as I have been and can be when experiencing my stress excessively, I can be dogmatic, perfectioistic and challenging but constantly work at not being so.
So to make a long story short I'm here attempting to clean up and connect some loose ends and doing some of this publically in this forum, as I ponder some issues and angle for some learning and integration of concepts I'vebeen pondering for years... which make more sense to me now, when considered from a systemic perspective.
I'm also here because, as part of this sifting and sorting process, I'm writing up a mediation over my educational experience last year, which was the source of much of my stress, anxiety and eventually my major depression because of a systemic quality mismatch between what I paid for and what I was delivered. And the ideas I've been exploring here, match up in some ways with the ideas I'm exploring in the mediation process I'm working on wrapping up, soon, very soon...
And as K. Vonnegut wrote, so it goes...
Namaste!
dj
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