Posted by kerry B on July 4, 2000, at 5:44:48
In reply to Re: to Rick from kerry B, posted by kerry B on July 3, 2000, at 17:32:37
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> > > Hi Rick,
> > > Thanks for your message! You certainly have enough at the moment to keep you occupied!
> > > Glad to hear you're stabilizing now, nothing worse than feeling lousy again. I have tried numerous times to slow down or cut off my meds but it never worked out like I thought it would.
> > > Be good if it did though.
> > > My meds are haywire at the moment. One person says to increase and the other says no. I don't know I can't keep up!
> > > I totally lost it last night. Went hysterical and phobic ect, won't go into it, actually posted Abby about it but she is going away for a while so she may not read it. My hub was advised to have me taken off by the police and sanctioned but he didn't, luckily as I had to work today. Got there somehow, got home somehow. Very disorienatated.
> > > The workaholic syndrome used to be a blessing for me but the last few weeks, I'm not so sure. I am actually useless there but they don't say anything as they are friends of mine that I work for, now that is a blessing!
> > > Have you moved yet? Today is Saturday for you isn't it? It is Sunday for me here, actually I am in Australia. I think I had a few people wondering. Now you have to unpack everything. I don't know which is better, the former or the latter?
> > > Well, better go and let you get your stuff done. Have a good time back at work. Hope you didn't hurt yourself too badly!
> > > Bye for now
> > > Kerry.
> > > P.S I will let you know how it goes tomorrow with the health team, hopefully some progress will be made. Bye!!!!!!!
> >
> > Kerry,
> >
> > Sounds like you have been having the same kind of month as me...I really thought that I would be able to get off these meds quick and feel better...HAHAHA what a joke. I had one of my worst panic attacks saturday while I was moving, and had to go lay down for about an hour while everyone else was helping...I felt so useless, and then I hated making excuses because even though people are generally nice, they don't understand what this feels like.
> >
> > I started upping my paxil to 20mg today, and already feel SOOO much better, was even able to go to wal mart to refill my remeron, which I am also going to start back up on. When I look back, it seems that when I was on both paxil and remeron, I felt my best...working everyday, feeling almost normal...and that's when I wanted to quit taking everything...I thought I was cured, and now I realize that the meds were just finally working! Guess that's why I don't have a PhD HaHa!
> >
> > Well, like myself, I hope you get your meds in order too...and start feeling better soon...looking forward to hearing some good news from you. Please keep me informed.
> >
> > Rick E.
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>
> Hi Rick,
> Glad to hear that you moved safely despite a few
> set-backs. Glad your first priority was to get your pc working!!!!
> Hope you are feeling really much better now. Nothing worse than having those attacks. I wish I could start the whole month over again and make it that none of this ever happened!!!
> Actually having a health team guy out today to see me. Don't know how I am going to explain it all to him, as of lately, my vocal communication port has shut down a bit. Can never find the words to describe just what I'm going through. Do you have that problem? Writing for me is so much easier, maybe I'll just hand him my latest input into my journal?
> Are you back at work now? Hope it is going well for you!!!!! Stay on your meds! It's a catch 22 situation. We feel as though we are on top of the world but it is only the meds but, always live with the hope that one day when we do go off them, we will never need them again. That phase of our lives will have passed.
> I always believe that this life is like a university and if we hang in there and learn all that we can we will come through with flying colours!!!! (hope that makes sense)!!!!
> Well, I have to somehow get ready for this visit I'm having. I am up early this-morning and it is so nice and quiet, bit shakey though, don't know why. Hopefully today will be THE day that they will look into my meds and see that there is a major fault there, just hoping anyway!
> I will keep you posted as to what they tell me today. People have me in hospital already but there's no way I'm going there, done my time before and it's not enjoyable.
> Hope you're enjoying your new place and all is well as I am writing this...Post you soon......
> P.S We shall have Phd's, remember, we are in the university of life!!!! HaHaHa!!!!!
>
> Kerry
Hi Rick,
Just a quicky to let you know the Health team guy came out this-morning after I sent you the last post. He was really great, showed alot of enthusiasm toward my case, got to the root of my problem which is stuff from way back in my childhood and throughout the years and is referring me to the special treatment clinic where I can work on this stuff. He seems to think that it was the trigger of my illness and if I work through it all, no matter how painful, I shall recover to some degree, maybe not get off meds but feel better in myself. Has anyone ever suggested that to you? It amazes me why noboby ever has before, to me, I might have had this all over and done with if they had of got onto this earlier, way earlier. He called it post traumatic shock and I'm thinking of all you've been through in your life, maybe it's something to look into. No I haven't got my Phd as from today, wish I had though.
Anyway, I'm feeling a little more positive at the moment, still struggling with moods but I will have to learn to handle them.
Well hope you are having a good time right now. It's the 4th of July coming up for you so have a good time, what do you do? Celebrate? Anyway, take care and keep me posted on how you're going!!!!Kerry
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