Posted by Janet on May 7, 2000, at 17:20:42
In reply to Thank you for your input-JohnB, Janet and Janice, posted by judy1 on May 6, 2000, at 12:52:18
Judy, I definately have signs that I am going manic, but I ignore them because I like not being depressed and thinking everyone is avoiding me. But after a while, the high gets too high and it is not "fun" anymore. Plus I realize I'm embarrassing myself. Charting is great so I can see what I've been doing, mood -wise. I tend to forget how long the episodes last and how often. The doctors like to look for patterns and at what meds. you have taken.I tend to prelude mania with, being HAPPY, which everyone likes, I feel sexual, full of energy, like doing good for others, don't want to sleep, thoughts are fast-firing, I can't sit still, I drive fast,I can't read.
Then, it turns to laughing when I'm the only one laughing, can't get enough sex, too much energy for my physical body, far out thoughts that I can't stop, hearing bells, ringing, children, seeing people and creatures, driving recklessly, unable to focus, irritated and so on. Just like the literature reads. I see my chart spiraling up and I seek help.
I'm bipolar 1 with rapid cycling.
Janet
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