Posted by dove on February 24, 2000, at 10:46:43
In reply to Re: Multitasking, posted by Noa on February 24, 2000, at 7:42:56
Hi Noa,
I didn't totally relate to your difficulties with multitasking, until I read your last post. All of a sudden, I had a very clear picture of what you've been talking about. And the over-extension being like a loosely dubbed mania. This is very much how my manic episodes have been for the last five years. I'm depressed, can't do anything, unmotivated; until I get suicidal and am really motivated to get everything in order. But, because I'm still completely disorganized, depressed and apathetic, I never finish the organizing job to finish my life (which is a good thing under these circumstances.)
Moving on to mania, I have *so* many things I want to do, and start to do. Little novelettes, sketches, prose, kiddie projects, decorating, on and on it goes. Totally over-extended, overwhelmed, mad because there's not enough time in the day to do all these fun things. Then sad, because the anger gets directed back at myself and I don't like what I see.
I remember you saying something about solitaire? I sit and play for hours and hours, don't even like the stupid game, it's so mindless though. You can spend your whole day watching those cards, no thoughts of bettering one's self or situation, no thinking, no doing. Just zeroed in on this thing that keeps one from going over the edge in either direction. But, the drawbacks are the social isolation, the self recriminations that show up later, and the increased apathy.
You really have a talent for seeing the symptoms with clarity, and the many facets and connections of said symptoms. You share so much more than just how you're feeling, do you know what I mean? Your posts really touch me Noa.
Here's hoping the increased Lithium and synthroid help, and quick! Thank you so much for sharing and allowing us to share with you :-)
dove
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