Posted by Brenda on February 23, 2000, at 20:53:55
In reply to Update , posted by Noa on February 23, 2000, at 20:37:56
> I finally spoke to my pdoc this evening. It turns out my thyroid tests were normal, but he sees room in the numbers to tweak a bit, and has recommended I increase the synthroid from one 25 microgram tablet to 1 1/2 tablets, and then later, possibly up to 2 tablets (50 micrograms). He also told me my lithium level had gone down from .8 in January to .6 this time, so he wants me to add another 300 mg, for a total of 1500/day.
> I forgot to ask him if it makes a difference whether the extra 300 mg capsule is taken in the am or pm. Anyone here know?
> So, let's see if this helps.
> My mood has been a tad better than last week, possibly because I came to another level of acceptance of my depression: this recent slump made me realize I need to pull in and narrow my focus, that I can't multi-task very well right now. I get overwhelmed so easily trying to do the mental juggling of different responsibilities. There is enough multi-tasking in life as it is, these days. this means giving up some professional endeavors, which I wasn't developing adequately anyway, just feeling badly that I wasn't able to. So now, I am trying to focus on just the basics, and leave the other stuff for somewhere down the road, if I am up for it then. It makes me really sad, it is a loss, but I feel relieved to have come to this decision. This is one of the ways this wretched illness has dampened my quality of life, and it makes me mad, too. But it is right for me right now to recognize that I have to stick to only the most basic stuff.
Wow Noa - I just stumbled into this room and internet page the other day - Now, I'm not alone. You read my mind about having to give some things up for another day. Some days it's so hard to have acceptance of something that really sucks. It was easier for me to accept being an alcoholic than my depression. Sounds to me like you've got a full plate right now. We always feel we SHOULD do more, don't we. When my depression is bad I miss being in my rose garden, my dogs, my art, and my at-home business suffers. Those days the best I can hope for is to get into another room. If I can get to my garden or to the pool, that's a success. Luckily I have work at home and have some leeway there. My clients don't know I'm hiding under the covers. Anyway, you sound like you have a lot happening period. Be encouraged. You'll get to all those things in time.