Posted by bob on February 22, 2000, at 19:00:38
In reply to Re: pathetic vesper update, posted by CarolAnn on February 22, 2000, at 8:32:22
You know, there was an article in Out last year or so about "Dyke Dudes" or something like that ... my best friend (yep, she's a lesbian) laughed and laughed about it and had to send it to me. Back when we were living in the same city (grad school) and my friends were basically her crowd, the "in" joke was to ask me what I thought about some woman passing by -- if I found her attractive, they said that was a sure indication she was a sister. Even funnier -- we have the same taste in women ... well, ALMOST. Too many simultaneous cases of doubletake-whiplash between the two of us.
Just go to the hospital, Vesper. Pick one friend you can trust to help you follow through. Yeah, if the person really is a friend, they've gotta know just how much you are hurting and are probably worried sick about wanting to help without stepping on your toes.
As you can see, tho, we have no such compunctions around here.
Go get fulltime help. You need it. More importantly, you just need the rest! You're probably so tied up by trying to hide what you feel from everyone around you, you have nothing left to fight the good fight. So put yourself in a place where they know how you feel and they want to help.
Stop trying to do it all yourself. I've said it before, I'll say it again: the ultimate sign that you are in control is when you can give it to someone else. Cutting is one way to take control of the pain. So is getting 24/7 attention to your needs.
Yes, you deserve it, and yes, you need it. Especially if your mother is so ill. Give yourself the opportunity to pull things together so you can be your best when you need to.
And when you *do* go in (PLEASE), leave us a note before you go. Funny as it may seem, "talking to a computer", we all know there are real people at the other end of the line who have walked or are walking the same paths, fight the same beasts, and that builds a connection no technology can lesson. Don't go in and leave us hanging -- there are too many people here who care too much to hear nothing from you without warning.
Now,
(1)reply to this message, saying that you're on your way
(2)call that friend
(3)get yourself admittedand get better,
bob
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