Posted by Cindy W on February 7, 2000, at 21:25:47
In reply to Re: Update on the Depressed Person's Lair, posted by harry b. on February 7, 2000, at 21:13:10
> Noa, thanks for your response to my post re:
> Serzone. I've been reading the board and came
> upon this thread. I think I know what your place
> looked like. I have a very small house, I have
> not permitted entry to anyone in about 10 years.
> It's sad. I used to clean and have people over
> for dinner. Even had a party once. That seems
> like a lifetime ago. Now I live in a dark cave,
> the blinds always closed. Cat hair and cobwebs
> everywhere. My plumbing is in disrepair. I have
> to close the water valve in the basement to stop
> the leaking faucets. The ceilings are cracked
> and falling in on me. A few years ago I did not
> clean my cat's litter for several months. She
> decided to do her business in the spare bedroom.
> That door has not been opened since. I'd need a
> biohazard suit to go in there. The exterior isn't
> any better. I manage to keep the lawn mowed most
> of the time and I shovel the sidewalks to avoid
> being fined. Beyond that, it's just a matter of
> time til the neighbors call the authorities.
> Depression sucks. When anyone knocks on my door
> I freeze and wait for them to go away. It's like
> I'm a criminal or something.
>
> BTW, I made it thru the day. Now I'll try to make
> it thru the night. Like Michael, I have weapons,
> and I feel a desire to handle the one I've chosen
> as my means of exit. So simple, so quick, forever.
>
harry b, I hope you make it thru the night without handling your weapons. Depression is a treatable condition if you reach out to others for help. I totally wrecked my house (from having 2000 guinea pigs) and was able to clean it up and walk away, without feeling totally hopeless, because friends told me that I could walk away and that I could get better. Please remember that people on this board care and want to help, and if you start feeling like hurting yourself, call somebody so you are not alone (even if you have to call a crisis number, emergency room, doctor, etc.). Hang in there!--Cindy W
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