Posted by cag on February 1, 2000, at 21:35:01
In reply to Re: Countdown to invasion, posted by Noa on February 1, 2000, at 19:56:48
I realized you were not using the term OCD seriously, and can honestly understand what you are going through. I wish I knew my Mother's rationalization for doing what she did. This was many moons ago. But it was a source of true tragedy for her children. We still talk about it endlessly. It will never be resolved with us. We all felt she loved her trash more than she loved us. We often cried about it and begged her to stop it when we were little. Our dream was to have a playmate actually come in to play. Or actually sit down at a table to eat or get water out of the faucet. (We couldn't get to the sinks or the stove.) We didn't date or tell anyone where we lived. The yard was as bad as the inside. We were so ashamed of it and felt so condemned. Some folks wouldn't let us come to their houses to play with their kids, because we were dirty little kids with pitiful clothes and very unlearned in the polite ways of life. I want so much for you to be able to get out of your spot and feel the freedom that will come to you when you are finally finished with this. I find I am almost wreckless with being able to rid myself of stuff. If I can't find a place to put something away I will get rid of it rather than clutter up my place. Thankfully, my husband takes out the trash every morning, and I know having a husband keeps me cleaner than I might be if I were alone. We can let ourselves really get down and out when we live alone. Good luck, Noa. How I hope you can accomplish this. It will be so good for you.
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