Posted by finelinebob on August 19, 2006, at 15:33:32
In reply to Ahhhhh ... I get it ... so THAT's why I'm back...., posted by finelinebob on August 16, 2006, at 23:44:44
> May your strength give us strength
> May your faith give us faith
> May your hope give us hope
> May your love bring us love
I think I may have written in a different thread here in 2000 my experience with flashbacks down at "Ground Zero" and how I learned to fight them down and not be victimized by them.
From my post above, it looks like the Beast found another way to hit me with a sucker punch and definitely caught me off guard ... and it's taken a few days to recover from that blow.
But it's time to start hitting back. It's time to turn the hunter into the hunted and to stop being victimized by it. I moved back to NYC because it feels like "home" more than anything else in my life, and I'm not going to tolerate letting that trauma tresspass any longer.
There comes a time when you decide to stop running, to turn around and fight. Looks like, for this particular demon, that time is now.