Posted by NikkiT2 on October 5, 2003, at 8:51:32
In reply to Re: Anybody down? » NikkiT2, posted by shar on October 4, 2003, at 22:09:53
Hey hun..
yeah, sectioned is being taken into hospital aginst your will..
Thing is.. its all damned Heroin related, and thats what annoys me. he had told all of us he was clean.. and he's not.. and his girlfriend is 5 1/2 months pregnant, and needs him..I'm just fed up with having friends. I know that sounds terrible.. but I am fed up being the door mat they wipe the dog poo they've walked in off on. But I'm not a strong enough person to do anything about it.
Oh, and did I mention I'm off meds *lol* Had such a bad allergic reaction to the last one he put me on that he wanted me to have 2 months free of them. I see the sexy Dr B on tuesday though.. but I only seem to have one med left to try, as I'm not willing to try MAOI's.. (life without pizza is just not worth contemplating!!).. lets hope this works then. I do have hopes for it, so we shall see!
And I'm am so utterly fed up with all the name changing thats going on around here.. These people that know stuff about me, but I have no idea who they are. People who seem to have only been here 5 minutes complaining about Dr Bobs moderating.. yet it seems they've been here for ages really.. and the Galkeepinon thing has really really done my head in. If you had seen the stuff she wrote to me under her other persona, you might understand why I have problems forgiving. I feel tricked and lied to. I'd post them here if they wouldn't just been full of *'s!
But.. I'm not suicidal really (which actually suprises me).. but I feel worse than I have done in such a long long long time.. nothing feels right or normal.. I don't feel safe, and the feelings of utter utter dread are awful.
But plus side.. I'm hardly eating so may actually lose some weight!!!
I want to cry the entire time, but after two pathetic little tears it all dries up and I'm left feeling.. cheated I guess.And I know its not SAD, cos I hardly went out all summer anyway, so hardly got any UV then..
And finances are very bad.. have no idea how to afford all the birthdays I need to buy for November, let alone christmas.
Oh, I'm sorry to off load all of this here.. I have no real problems.. I have my husband, I'm not in much physical pain, I have some wonderful friends (even if they are all Virtual ones). And not even getting PMS as my periods have stopped.
Oh well.. I guess this will pass, as with everything else, eventually.
Thanks so much for caring..
Nikki xx
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