Posted by Janice on December 9, 1999, at 15:09:16
In reply to Re: docs meds and thanks.(long..), posted by Noa on December 9, 1999, at 11:26:27
I'm sorry to hear you're feeling so bad. I'm remember communicating with you before, as we have many of the same problems (although I'm as stable as I've ever been right now - which doesn't really say that much). I think you're right on track with the mood stabilizer.
I certainly know where you're coming from when you implied it takes all your energy to 'act normal' and not flip out at people. This is my life...where the majority of my energy goes...acting normal and struggling to do things normal people don't even think about (eat, sleep, get the f*** out of bed, show up places on time, make small talk, clean).
I'm trying to get a new doctor, which has been constantly pissing me off. If I go to see my new doctor, I can write the rest of the day off as I'm too angry to do anything else, but the thought of finding another freaks me out too. Lately, I've been thinking they are actually bureaucrats, who happen to wear white coats and have a degree in science (I'm in Canada - it's probably different in the States). Anyways, yes, try to get yourself on a mood stabilizer. As I told Noa, I felt the effects of lithium on the third day. It stops my highs (& much irritability), lessens the extent of my lows (the bottom of my life no longer falls out), and lessens my '20 second mood changes' that happen during the day. I believe it's saved my life. Take care of yourself Dove. I'll be thinking of you. Keep us informed, Janice.
poster:Janice
thread:16372
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/19991123/msgs/16528.html