Posted by dove on December 9, 1999, at 8:30:32
In reply to I agree with John's post, posted by MA on December 8, 1999, at 23:15:02
I will be seeing the P-doc in a couple hours. I have not taken the prozac or wellbutrin since tuesday and feel so much better. When I went in on tuesday my doc tried to commit me to inpatient, I almost went ballistic, deep breathing and extreme voice control, as to not scream at him helped. He essentially told me that none, not one, of his patients has ever reacted to prozac like this and he believes the problem is me. I asked him why I couldn't use a mood-stabilizer with the anti-depressant and looked at me like I was speaking a different language.
My husband is strongly encouraging me to get a second opinion but I'm afraid of switching docs and possibly receiving another long list of *diagnoses* and meds. I don't know, I do know that when I try to be honest and tell them how I am doing they just want to lock me up. This is why I never sought help the previous 20 years or so.
I do feel like the holidays is adding another demension to the depression/frustration but the prozac was numbing me to the point where I couldn't even talk to my kids or husband and had completely stopped laughing or interacting with anyone. I couldn't even write until I actually decided to stop taking it, then I was like in overdrive. My birthday was on tuesday, had completely spaced it, then realized when I wrote on the board and kinda woke-up.
The Adderall and Amitriptyline have been in place for quite awhile, with no real negative side-effects. I have struggled with depression (suicidal ideation) for most of my life, so that was the reason for the Prozac, kind of a preventive before the holidays. I started Prozac-20 mgs around Nov. 5th, added wellbutrin-150mgs on Dec. 3rd. The depression hit me so hard and out-of-nowhere that I thought it was me not the meds.
I am still having crying-jags, little bouts of anger, then sadness, then hopelessness, promptly followed by "what the heck is wrong with me, life is great." The moods change so quick, like 20 seconds inbetween the extremes, and I am afraid to tell the doc because he might lock me up.
I am truly gratefull to all of you for your concern and support. You all are heaven-sent and I can't thank you all enough. I send my deepest thanks and blessings to all of you, thank you.
dove
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