Posted by dove on October 17, 1999, at 11:20:16
In reply to Invisible Masters: Compulsions & the Fear that.., posted by dj on October 16, 1999, at 13:00:14
Yes! I have never once met my own standards or goals. I've spent my entire life as my own personal failure. I watched others set their goals, succeed and they felt so empowered. It made me green with envy but never changed my outlook. And the depression only adds to that, I see reality while others see their reality completely filtered through their dreams and positivity for the future.
Seeking refuge in compulsions that insulate in the beginning and turn into bondage later is very common and not just for those of us on this board. Society as a whole commits these acts everyday. When the compulsion is unacceptable or visibly negative, it's recognized long before those compulsions that produce good 'fruit'. You put too much into your job and it has a negative effect on your family but gains you promotions and more money.
just thinking aloud,
dove
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