Posted by Craig on July 3, 1999, at 2:39:38
In reply to CRAIG and everyone please read, posted by Rene' on July 2, 1999, at 21:11:17
Hi Rene', I'd wondered where you'd disappeared to. (If you're looking for your post in last months archive, it was on June 5.) It sounds like these unreal feelings are consuming your life. As much as I wish it would go away for you (and me), it apparently is something that occurs and disappears on its own. If you've fought it as much as you can fight and it still won't go away, maybe it's time to make some peace with it. I know how much it can drive you crazy, but try not to focus on it. Thinking about it only makes things worse, at least for me. For those times when it's really bad, get home and go to bed. I'm not saying that you'll be all better when you wake up, but the intensity of the experience usually lessens. I remember driving one dark and foggy night this spring and that, combined with the depersonalization and derealization, really scared me. Everything looked even more unreal. Somehow I managed to get home, but I don't know how I did it.
I'm a little worried that if I tell you about my experiences, it will scare you more than help you. As you already know, most people have a hard time relating to these feelings since they've never felt this way. When I used to describe this to people, they said it sounded like I got to trip for free and wondered why it bothered me. Well, it bothered me because I never did drugs and after feeling this way for so long, I wondered why anybody would WANT to take drugs that made them feel this way. Drug trips usually last a limited period of time while depersonalization and derealization have a life of their own.
If you find that writing helps, keep posting to this board and maybe between the two of us we'll come up with some better ways of dealing with this.
> i posted a message on last months posts about a constant derealization/depersonalization feeling that i have constantly and have had for 1 year and 3 months. i am so tired all the time mentally and physically. for those of you that have never heard the term before, it is a feeling of unreality, like you are living in a waking dream. i would love some support and advice for dealing with this, along with some testimonials for those of you that experience this disorder, or forms of it. thank you very much, rene'
poster:Craig
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