Posted by Nancy on January 4, 1999, at 19:02:48
In reply to Re: LOOKIN' FOR YOUR COMPANY RACER, posted by v on January 3, 1999, at 10:25:20
> reading these posts has struck me profoundly... i feel my grief, your grief, our grief
> i often wonder what my life could have been like if i were able to function and had been able to live instead of using all my energy to merely survive... and i admit to much anger and bitterness over all those lost years and what i perceive of as a sad waste
> right now, i am experiencing relief as i never felt before from a medication... nothing dramatic or drastic... just a void where the incessant pain howls from - like the hole from which it pours out is closed.
> it terrifies me to think of a relapse... i always thought that if i could find a medication that really helped, that it would be alright... like "they" always use the analogy of likening medication to having diabetes or some other controllable disease
> so this peace is tempered by the terror of knowing i can be reclaimed by a darkness i can't bear or tolerate
> there is nothing i can say to lessen anyone's pain... i know that
> all i can add is my profound wish for the healing of us all
> regards,
> vDear V,
You have poetry in your soul. I, too, fear the entity taking absolute control as it's done before. It smacks absurdity when "those" people liken our conditions to diabetes or high blood pressure (ha ha ha ha) how insulting. I've never known anyone with diabetes or high blood pressure unable to even lift one arm off the bed for days of trying. Nor have I heard of one of them putting every ounce of energy into concentrating on just trying to stay alive just one more hour...just hold on one more hour...Well, how many hours are we morally required to do this before being allowed to be set free?
poster:Nancy
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