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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 2:39:32
Of course. This is not a civil subject. I believe, morally, i live with a family, and in the past. I never understood why i was put down constantly, talked about, my own mother gossips about me now, you know whats funny? people talked about me in high school. Now my own parents gossip about me. Someone say T-R-A-S-H, and their evil chats, blasphomy, i dont wish them bad, i wish that God will put them, and reveal their secret sins they do. This will go on the internet. For all the world, or people on the web. I am ashamed, that i was born with aspeger's. I've came to the point, I am ashamed my mother married my stepfather. I am ashamed the way she treats me and then says: look at you, your angry!
It's a trap, DNA, this happened before in the family. I have had it. I will say to God, thank you for letting me have life, but I don't understand why you placed me with these parents. I'm here? right....there for i cause, and any put downs. From them, represents the true meaning of who they are. I cannot stand my stepfather, The bitter heart, will bear bitter fruit. He will eat his own pride, and die. I'm not his judge, but I pray to father and God himself, this will happen. God see's every evil doer, and they will be punished. I spritually, want to tell Satan, "help me" since no one else does, But ofcourse, we all know, that is the stupidist desion you can make. which people have said "there something wrong with him" F*CK YES THERE YOU IDIOTS!I'm tired of mistreatment, being "catorgirzed" and play games, "where not doing anything, you are"
People do you see what my parents are doing? EEEE wrong awnser, i cut them off, there not my parents. There just as like the people in school. I just have the luxury of living with them. I want to get out, but you have to understand, i can't take on "mulpli" jobs. I.....start to wear off, and i dont want other personalites doing my work for me. I was the one that was born, they where created, but as coping mechanism.
I'm a very angry person, bottem line. When it comes to the point where some humilates you till you can't take it. They wont know what true pain like after that. I believe in punishment to a person who "intentially" looks down on a person, which that person has a disorder, they can't help.
You know in school, sometimes i wanted to get something and beat the living sh*t until they say "please, no more!, i'm sorry". That's a juvinile look at it. When you become and adult, and the same thing happens, i need help! I won't disclose, but i need to get out of this house as soon as possible. Other wise, there will be horrible thing that will happen. And you have to understand, i know people have given me advice. This site has always been here...if you disagree with me...f u, go your own way. I know alot people suffer, but when "its about to hit the top, that means something bad will happen, you figure it out"
The people that i'm associated with, especially my own parents are not supportive. I already disclosed "Tiffany" has replaced my mother I switch with her, rarely, but usally when i cannot cope with a situation. Such as when no one, will give a helping hand....
what happens, the mind "spits" because of abandoment. Into other characters, from intense trama. After your tears have dried, and can not cry no more, another character is created to continaully cope, and forget the memories and start a new life. It's very sad, but it's true. I have alot of compassion for other who have suffered even worse, sexual abuse, some stories that cannot be spoken about because of the horrendous past.
But to the main subject, people who hurt you in life, especially when its your own family. There got to be a plan to get out. And make it known, who did this to you. My therpist, stares at me like, and tells me the rules of living. He doenst listen to my danm problem.
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Will someone help me with anger, and let this pass away? when you have this baggage your whole life.....its alot of things.I hope someone here's this story. I dont want to plant seeds of discord, but i'm angry, and raged, why this happened.
Have a great day;)
Posted by Phillipa on October 21, 2008, at 2:39:32
In reply to Do you ever feel like beating someone to death?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 20, 2008, at 23:45:34
Seems thing are going downhill instead of uphill for you since you say you were diagnosed with Aspergers. Are you sure it's a right diagnosis. Get A punching bag and take it out it and not on others or yourself. So you feel your are disasociating? Maybe talk to some of the people on the psychology board? Are you on the same meds? Love Phillipa ps please calm the anger.
Posted by yxibow on October 21, 2008, at 3:31:59
In reply to Do you ever feel like beating someone to death?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 2:39:32
Anger is a common substitute for the sorrow we feel in life.
It's allright to let out your anger, in a civil fashion, in discussions with a psychologist, even if you have a few plates from IKEA you want to throw at the wall (I have to include humour), but yes -- at that level, its something that needs to be channeled against itself into something more positive. Something that will get you forward.
You can be angry at the world for all that has happened to you, and it isn't fair at all -- I'm depressed, which also carries anger, where I am in life because I feel I deserve more and future achievement than I'm currently constrained in, though I have to give credit for what I have done in the past. But staying in one spot like that won't push you forward.
But as for criminal behaviour, which would include beating someone to death... um.... no.But then perhaps my issues are different and turned inward, I don't have homicidal views, I guess I am lucky to have the parents I do, who are capable of getting therapy I really need. I've always been close to them so I guess I don't identify quite as much.
Rather I'm so introverted and sad with life that I have what is natural to have, passing suicidal and very morose views, as I struggle with what I believe to be the most serious disorder in my life.
I'd rather not be in the jail mental wards, which are not pretty places.
If that level of anger is entering your life, on a level that ... well... hmm.... I'm not trying to play armchair psychiatrist, I think there's some sort of psychosis attached to it, but I don't wish to be demeaning -- that's for your doctor to decide, and if you can't get along with your doctor you have one choice as an adult, try to voice your disagreements more, or get a second opinion.
It would behoove you to think about how to manage the anger at all the things that you have gone through in life with coping skills and maybe with a possible change in medication regime because I don't think you want to go down that path more than in a passing fantasy....do you?
-- best wishes
Jay
Posted by Phillipa on October 21, 2008, at 12:47:18
In reply to Re: Do you ever feel like beating someone to death? » rjlockhart04-08, posted by Phillipa on October 21, 2008, at 2:39:32
RJ are things better today? Love Phillipa
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 18:24:38
In reply to Do you ever feel like beating someone to death?, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 2:39:32
disregard this post. When i really angry, i write what i'm thinking.
And seeing this on psychobabble......lord, forgive me.
I'm a good person, i just have been wrong'd and people deny it and say "stop playing the victem" when in turn they are.
This is result of dyphuniction. But i believe, mind set, and faith in god will rule out other things.
Anyone who reads this, disregard what i said, its just my parents are "passive" and my mother was incredibly protective and would pass medical guidelines.
This is result of abuse, rages, and abandoment.
Life is life. Let's here something good somehas to say, i disreguard posts that i cannot believe i posted.
Posted by Kath on October 21, 2008, at 20:16:47
In reply to delete this post please....., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 18:24:38
((((((((((((((((you)))))))))))))))
I am so very sorry for all the pain you've endured. You sound like a really good person - sensitive & not deserving of the pain you've gone through.
Are you seeing a therapist these days?
I send you warm hugs, Kath
Posted by Kath on October 21, 2008, at 20:19:06
In reply to delete this post please....., posted by rjlockhart04-08 on October 21, 2008, at 18:24:38
Don't know if your living situation allows it...I think you live with your family so it might not work for you.
If you've ever alone - I love this way of getting rid of some anger:
Take a tray of ice cubes into the bathroom. HURL them one by one into the tub (if nobody is home & the neighbours won't hear you can yell while you are doing it....yell what you'd like to say to whoever...but only if nobody's going to hear you). I find the ice shattering VERY satisfying to see & hear. Just be careful none bounces up & hits you in the eye. :-)
luv, Kath
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