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Posted by carle on February 8, 2007, at 4:50:51
I do wonder, at times, where and when in my life, I aqquired this depressive mind set and attitude. Why? :(--------------was it in grade school in Jr. High. and then a continuation of what I thought to be be learned and "true" I should not be suffering this much! I look back at many of my pics from my younger life and really do wonder.... I don't expect a lot of answers except for the fact that my OCD mind fills in the blanks for me... God I am sad. Lonelely and feel somewhat mis-placed. I should, by all intensive purposes, have a more nore normal life. WTF? I see soooo many of my pictures of my self growing up just not smiling or inhibited. Yet I am considered BPII ---oh well so goes the DSM-IV ............. I think it is all a grey line and subjective. My life has NOT been terrible. Just the idea that I should feel more complete and fulfilled and loved. God knows I have a LOT to give. Like I said...WTF
Clint
Posted by snapper on February 8, 2007, at 4:52:33
In reply to I wonder?, posted by carle on February 8, 2007, at 4:50:51
................btw I don't know how my last name got in there!
Posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 8:09:43
In reply to I wonder?, posted by carle on February 8, 2007, at 4:50:51
i have similiar questions. i remember lying on my bed, crying and alone, when i was around 9.......but i don't remember having a reason for being so sad and lonely......
Posted by Phil on February 8, 2007, at 9:00:32
In reply to Re: I wonder? » carle, posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 8:09:43
I used to get really angry when I was a kid and go hide in the back yard and cry and beat up the grass.
I remember jr high and high school where I would fall into deep depressions.
Unfortunately my mom was drinking too heavy to even notice and my step-father was working and not too familiar with emotion. I had no one to go to.
I've had shrinks and therapists ask me flat out how I managed to get through those times. I've never had an answer.I don't know how I get through the days now. I'm just hard-headed and will not give up.
Plus, since being correctly dx'ed with bipolar, the meds have helped. Too bad I was misdiagnosed for 20 years.The past is the past--I can't change it.
I still play the game of--is it the disease or just me?
Posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 11:10:03
In reply to Re: I wonder?, posted by Phil on February 8, 2007, at 9:00:32
Well I spent my time in the woods and in trees and beating up boys. Does that mean I was depressed. I mean my Mom was sick and my Father never there. And they only yelled at me. Love Phillipa
Posted by Phil on February 8, 2007, at 11:27:41
In reply to Re: I wonder? » Phil, posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 11:10:03
"beating up boys"
So YOU'RE the one!! : )
Posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 12:09:42
In reply to Re: I wonder? » Phillipa, posted by Phil on February 8, 2007, at 11:27:41
Yes and flipping them over my shoulders so it flew them over and knocked them out. Boy was I scared. And I slammed the door on a girl and knocked her tooth out. Love Phillipa
Posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 15:52:37
In reply to Re: I wonder? » Phil, posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 12:09:42
> Yes and flipping them over my shoulders so it flew them over and knocked them out. Boy was I scared. And I slammed the door on a girl and knocked her tooth out. Love Phillipa
were we separated at birth, Phillipa? i regularly beat boys up at school.(grade school and highschool)....when i was 17, a boy tried to "get to second base" with me and i broke his nose and damaged his netherlands extensively with my knee.......(i also jumped out of the barn onto the back of a cow one time.....reckon we were just crazy about risk taking?)i'm 5' and 100 lbs........
Posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 19:03:46
In reply to Re: I wonder? » Phillipa, posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 15:52:37
I was Davey Crockett coonskin cap and everything. I wanted to be a boy. So I was a big tomboy. Love Phillipa
Posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 19:10:27
In reply to Re: I wonder? » fayeroe, posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 19:03:46
> I was Davey Crockett coonskin cap and everything. I wanted to be a boy. So I was a big tomboy. Love Phillipa
i had a lifesize Davey Crockett doll that the church gave in a contest that i won........i don't remember the contest, but it was probably violent. :-) i wore flannel shirts and levis to school.......
Posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 19:29:58
In reply to Re: I wonder?, posted by fayeroe on February 8, 2007, at 19:10:27
Ha Ha I had zip up the pants in the front before they made them for girls. And refused to wear a bra. Till I really had to or a shirt. Wonder if I'm really a boy? Nope looked doesn't look that way. Love Phillipa
Posted by Fivefires on February 9, 2007, at 0:29:39
In reply to Re: I wonder? » fayeroe, posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 19:29:58
Okay P, you and fayeroe, are scaring me!
5f
Posted by Phillipa on February 9, 2007, at 12:55:30
In reply to Re: I wonder? » fayeroe, posted by Phillipa on February 8, 2007, at 19:29:58
Five Fires why does that scare you? Love Phillipa ps is this the thread you meant as it doesn't apply to the other one?
Posted by fayeroe on February 9, 2007, at 14:38:52
In reply to Re: I wonder? » Phillipa, posted by Fivefires on February 9, 2007, at 0:29:39
> Okay P, you and fayeroe, are scaring me!
>
> 5f
i outgrew it......:-) i grew up on a working ranch as the younger sister of a sadistic brother and i guess i worked it out on others.......:-(when i came an adult, i became a rodeo photographer......seemed a fair trade.......
i'm harmless now.......except towards the people who abuse children, the elderly and animals. :-)
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