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Posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on February 27, 2003, at 12:44:17
I am not sure if really anyone has read my Post on my 2 year old son getting into my Wellbutrin the other day. But I am still handling it really hard. He climb up on the counter and got my meds. Were not sure if he took one or nine but we got him right to the ER as fast as we could and we stayed over night and he is doing great but I am not. My husband and I got into a huge fight when he brought us home from the hospital. He told me it was all my fault that our son could have died because I was careless with my meds. Hello they were up high in on a cabinet. Who knew the little monkey would climb up there. I told my husband all I wanted was a little support that my anxiety was throught the roof and all he did was glare at me in the ER, and when we got settled into are room he left because he wanted to go to bed. I told him how f%$#@ self centered he was. Again he told me it was my fault now we were going to have another flipping medical bill so on so forth. In about a ten minute fight he told me it was all my fault. He did not take in to consideration how bad I felt that my son could have died because of my meds for my illness. When he got home later that night he tried to do something sweet and ask me to forgive him for not supporting me the night before in the ER. And then every place I would go there was 2 more red roses with another card final one said is this remotely working. I stomped my foot at him and said its hard to stay mad but I needed t go be by myself for a while. So I went to my local park hang out and smoked as many cigs as I could drank my Pepsi and talked to my mom on the phone. After about two hours of hanging out I called my husband and said you know you said sorry for not supporting me the big issue is that you were blaming me so what about that? Well our pastor had called him and chewed his butt good so he did apologize to me. I came home and went to bed. He thought alright make up sex NOT IN YOUR LIFE BUDDY!! I told him that I might have forgiven him but my heart still really hurt and it would be a while before the hurt went away and I rolled over went to sleep. My emotions have just been terrible I am cranky with my kids I have called my doctor because I fear this has made me take a step back in my recovery and it scares the crap out of me. I don't want to feel this way, after all my husband had said and done I feel so worthless again. I feel so empty but also so much pain I can't stand it. I would rather be in bed and never wake up! I took some xanax alittle while ago I hope it helps. I have been pacing the house all morning not knowing what to do with myself. I'd like to go to bed but I have to pick up my daughter from school. I feel like I am starting to feel crazy out of control. The anger is back and all those horrible feelings of blah!! I am sorry I am spilling my beans but I just had to vent somewhere. Please if you all could just pray for me I would appreciate very much. I want to get better I thought I was doing better until this and some other crap has happened in the past few weeks and it has just really set me back a few steps. Anyway gotta run.
Posted by Eddie Sylvano on February 27, 2003, at 14:29:10
In reply to Having a really crappy past few days., posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on February 27, 2003, at 12:44:17
> I am not sure if really anyone has read my Post on my 2 year old son getting into my Wellbutrin the other day. But I am still handling it really hard.
---------------Sorry to hear about all that. I don't have any kids, but I can imagine that it'd be pretty jarring to experience something like that, and even worse if there were some way that I felt responsible. Based on your description, though, it would seem that this was essentially an unforseeable accident, and not the direct result of you having medication in your cabinet (just like everyone else here). Your son came through fine and your husband has gotten past his need to vent, so all that remains is for you to forgive yourself. It sounds cliche, but what would you say to a friend in the same situation? We're always out own worst critics.
Posted by fayeroe on February 27, 2003, at 15:11:53
In reply to Having a really crappy past few days., posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on February 27, 2003, at 12:44:17
I'm so sorry that you feel so badly concerning your son getting into your meds. It sounds like it really scared your husband and he took it out on you. I am glad your minister spoke with him. But, for you to slip back in your recovery is not good. You didn't do anything wrong. You obviously had the pills where you thought they were safe from the child. You know we can be our own worst enemy and this is perfect timing for it. Re-evaluate what happened....your child is fine. Your husband apologized, albeit under duress. You are fine. Don't obssess on this and let it pull you back. Everything will work out. Best to you.
Posted by bozeman on February 28, 2003, at 23:12:18
In reply to Having a really crappy past few days., posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on February 27, 2003, at 12:44:17
>>> . . . I feel like I am starting to feel crazy out of control. The anger is back and all those horrible feelings of blah!! I am sorry I am spilling my beans but I just had to vent somewhere. Please if you all could just pray for me I would appreciate very much. I want to get better I thought I was doing better until this and some other crap has happened in the past few weeks and it has just really set me back a few steps . . . . .
>>>Hi NOTINSANE
It is absolutely understandable for you to feel stressed right now. Stressful events are happening to you, hon. Feeling sad or upset at sad or upsetting events is normal (God I hate that word, but I'm too tired to think of another.) It's when you feel sad or upset without a reason that you need extra help.
I'm sorry, I'm usually more eloquent than this, but what I'm trying to say is, your family just went through a stressful event (even though everyone is OK, it was still an EVENT for you all) and I'd be worried if you *weren't* upset. What I got out of your above post (especially the way you handled yourself, standing your ground with your husband without losing your temper or going to pieces) is that you actually did very well, given the circumstances. I know, I know it doesn't feel like it . . . but how do you think you'd be (stability wise) now it you weren't on your medication, and it had been, say, a bottle of Vioxx your son had gotten into?
I hope I am communicating that am *not* belittling your stress, but cheering for what appears to be an improvement in your strength and resiliency over what you've related to us recently. Prayers, you already got, but you can have more if you need 'em. :-)
Hugs OOOOOOOOOO
bozeman
Posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on March 3, 2003, at 11:22:06
In reply to Re: Having a really crappy past few days. » NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD, posted by bozeman on February 28, 2003, at 23:12:18
Thanks Bozeman, Nothing was taking wrong it was great! I have spent the last few days away by myself and really thought things through. My husband actually has come around after his father chewed his butt. But it made him think. I did get my meds bumped up and its so far really helped my aniexty alot. that is really what I a battling with the most lately but alls good. Thak you for the kind words and prayers. And Now that I really look at it your right I handled it better than I would have off my meds. :) Love ya and thaks for supporting me and others! God Bless Kerry
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