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Having a really crappy past few days.

Posted by NOTINSANEJUSTPPMD on February 27, 2003, at 12:44:17

I am not sure if really anyone has read my Post on my 2 year old son getting into my Wellbutrin the other day. But I am still handling it really hard. He climb up on the counter and got my meds. Were not sure if he took one or nine but we got him right to the ER as fast as we could and we stayed over night and he is doing great but I am not. My husband and I got into a huge fight when he brought us home from the hospital. He told me it was all my fault that our son could have died because I was careless with my meds. Hello they were up high in on a cabinet. Who knew the little monkey would climb up there. I told my husband all I wanted was a little support that my anxiety was throught the roof and all he did was glare at me in the ER, and when we got settled into are room he left because he wanted to go to bed. I told him how f%$#@ self centered he was. Again he told me it was my fault now we were going to have another flipping medical bill so on so forth. In about a ten minute fight he told me it was all my fault. He did not take in to consideration how bad I felt that my son could have died because of my meds for my illness. When he got home later that night he tried to do something sweet and ask me to forgive him for not supporting me the night before in the ER. And then every place I would go there was 2 more red roses with another card final one said is this remotely working. I stomped my foot at him and said its hard to stay mad but I needed t go be by myself for a while. So I went to my local park hang out and smoked as many cigs as I could drank my Pepsi and talked to my mom on the phone. After about two hours of hanging out I called my husband and said you know you said sorry for not supporting me the big issue is that you were blaming me so what about that? Well our pastor had called him and chewed his butt good so he did apologize to me. I came home and went to bed. He thought alright make up sex NOT IN YOUR LIFE BUDDY!! I told him that I might have forgiven him but my heart still really hurt and it would be a while before the hurt went away and I rolled over went to sleep. My emotions have just been terrible I am cranky with my kids I have called my doctor because I fear this has made me take a step back in my recovery and it scares the crap out of me. I don't want to feel this way, after all my husband had said and done I feel so worthless again. I feel so empty but also so much pain I can't stand it. I would rather be in bed and never wake up! I took some xanax alittle while ago I hope it helps. I have been pacing the house all morning not knowing what to do with myself. I'd like to go to bed but I have to pick up my daughter from school. I feel like I am starting to feel crazy out of control. The anger is back and all those horrible feelings of blah!! I am sorry I am spilling my beans but I just had to vent somewhere. Please if you all could just pray for me I would appreciate very much. I want to get better I thought I was doing better until this and some other crap has happened in the past few weeks and it has just really set me back a few steps. Anyway gotta run.


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