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Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 16:58:27
Something is missing. Not sure if this is existential crisis or return of depression or both. Seems like life is wrong. Having trouble with the emptiness of single life, yet I've all but given up on socializing. Better go call someone.
Dreamed of floating upriver on a float, fell asleep, woke up, had drifted away from my companions, paddled to shore, went back to find them. Everyone looked slightly like them but was not them. Finally found the house, it was closed up, packed, empty except for my aunt, ghostlike, limbo. Whatever it means, I don't like it.
Posted by ctrlaltndel on August 24, 2002, at 17:06:27
In reply to Wistful, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 16:58:27
Sorry to hear you are not feeling your perky self..hope it's transient whatever it is...
lovables..
dreamer
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 22:27:48
In reply to Re: Wistful » ~~tabitha~~, posted by ctrlaltndel on August 24, 2002, at 17:06:27
Thanks, smoochables. Perky self is hibernating for the winter. Wait, it's still summer, isn't it. Bad sign.
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 22:37:55
In reply to Re: Wistful » ctrlaltndel, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 22:27:48
Ever get in that depressed withdrawn mood where you don't have the energy to connect with people, then start hating oneself for giving off anti-social vibes? Feel like a blight on the landscape?
Posted by Dinah on August 24, 2002, at 22:40:23
In reply to Re: dragging sorry self to party, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 24, 2002, at 22:37:55
Yes I do.
But my particular variety is feeling like a huge burden to the host or hostess who feel they need to include me, when I'd really rather just watch.
Have fun. I'll bet the hardest part will be dragging yourself there. After that you might even have fun. :)
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 25, 2002, at 5:32:52
In reply to Re: dragging sorry self to party » ~~tabitha~~, posted by Dinah on August 24, 2002, at 22:40:23
Unlike the usual party thrown by a coworker, this party totally rocked. Apparently there's some sort of Euro- party circuit that this guy is on. The place was mobbed with beautiful people. A brazilian drum group. I danced, I drank vodka, I flirted with euro guys. The cops came and shut it down. Yeah! And then I took a walk with my 27 yr old coworker to sober up. And then I kissed him. Sadly it was more me than him doing the kissing. Crap.
Oh well, I felt young again anyway. YEah!
Posted by Dinah on August 25, 2002, at 7:56:39
In reply to Re: maybe had too much fun, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 25, 2002, at 5:32:52
I love those reminders that life can still be enjoyable.
Hope you aren't paying the price this morning.
I've got a splitting headache this morning, and didn't have a bit of fun last night. No fair!
Posted by Robin.d.j on August 25, 2002, at 12:03:31
In reply to Re: maybe had too much fun, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 25, 2002, at 5:32:52
Boy could I ever use one of those kisses right now!!!I miss kissing o-:
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 26, 2002, at 12:22:36
In reply to Re: maybe had too much fun » ~~tabitha~~, posted by Robin.d.j on August 25, 2002, at 12:03:31
Oh,yeah, this is why I quit drinking. Hangover & regrets & more depression. :( Plus I have to go to work and face my little boy-toy, er I mean colleague. Ulp.
Posted by Ted on August 26, 2002, at 12:43:32
In reply to Re: now totally embarrassed, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 26, 2002, at 12:22:36
Tabbi,
Fortunately not my story, but....
I was told about a guy who worked here about 15 years ago. He was a computer tech-support agent who worked the night shift. Well, our computers are known for their reliability, so his job was *really* boring. So, his girlffiend came to visit one night. They went to the computer room, layed down behind one of the big systems, and proceded to have sex. Well, computer rooms are noisy, and they didn't hear one of the upper-level managers (or director or VP?) enter with guests from another company for a tour. Well, you can understand the embarrassment that followed. He wasn't fired -- news of his actions was punishment enough. He left on his own in less than a year.
We also had a *real, authentic* nymphomaniac who worked here. One of the other office ladies would go out with her after work to the local bars (they were both in their mid-20s). This girl (the nympho) would pick up multiple guys at once. She was caught once in the men's restroom getting publicly banged. She was once found by the coworker in a hotel room, when the coworker was tired of waiting, servicing a whole hockey team. She didn't even bother to wash up when she left. Yuck.
Happens all the time. This is California. Your situation is relatively tame by our standards.
Ted
Posted by Dinah on August 26, 2002, at 18:16:55
In reply to Re: now totally embarrassed, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 26, 2002, at 12:22:36
Watch a few more episodes of Sex and the City and you will consider yourself the very soul of probity. Let's see, I'll set my sleep deprived brain to think of which of the episodes will make your little picadillo seem minor and amusing in comparison.
Although I think I'd savor the idea of a boy toy colleague for a while. There aren't many (any) choices of fantasy men at my office. :(
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 26, 2002, at 22:30:17
In reply to Re: Don't worry Tabitha., posted by Dinah on August 26, 2002, at 18:16:55
Oh, but desire is painful. That lovely young flesh so unattainable. And those nasty sterotypes of desperate 40ish women pinging my insecurities.
Posted by Dinah on August 27, 2002, at 6:02:46
In reply to Re: Don't worry Tabitha., posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 26, 2002, at 22:30:17
Fantasy might be painful, but life without fantasy is even more painful.
About six or seven years ago, my therapist asked me about my fantasy life. At the time I had a rich fantasy life, my own little world even. Well, I wouldn't share the fantasies, because they were mine. But just him asking the question dried up the fantasies completely. I just can't seem to fantasize at all now. I can watch a movie and enjoy, say, Harrison Ford. But I can't fantasize about him other than maybe mentally replaying a scene from the movie. It's the weirdest thing. One question and a delightful pastime of over 30 years vanished not to return for at least these six or seven years.
I miss fantasy, and I hope one day I will regain the ability. (But still there would be no one in my office to fantasize about. :) )
So enjoy that fantasy for me? But maybe substitute Harrison Ford every once in a while. I really like older seasoned men. Who am I kidding. I've liked Harrison since the first Star Wars movie. :)
Dinah
Posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 27, 2002, at 14:09:38
In reply to Re: Don't worry Tabitha. » ~~tabitha~~, posted by Dinah on August 27, 2002, at 6:02:46
I don't have much of a fantasy life either. Mine are too reality-based. I sometimes try to pry them off a real-life unattainable object and put them onto a truly unattainable object like a celebrity where they're more harmless. I've been blissfully free of fantasy for a couple years. That's happiness for me. I hate painful longing. I can spend hours obsessing and suffering. I really had to force myself to break that habit. It's all really father issues with me anyway, Daddy didn't want me, blah blah blah, so I find a new unattainable male and try to fix the past with him, and fail, and re-live all that childhood pain. Ugh. Round and round.
Well my therapist is back from vacation, thank god for that. She reminded me of reality in this situation. The unpleasant thing is here I was getting hung up on a 27-yr old, meanwhile the other man in my life is 72. Could it get any more inappropriate? That middle ground eludes me. Where are the 40-something guys? I really need a real social life, do I ever.
Posted by judy1 on August 27, 2002, at 17:19:32
In reply to Re: Don't worry Tabitha. » Dinah, posted by ~~tabitha~~ on August 27, 2002, at 14:09:38
Well my therapist is back from vacation, thank god for that. She reminded me of reality in this situation. The
unpleasant thing is here I was getting hung up on a 27-yr old, meanwhile the other man in my life is 72. Could it
get any more inappropriate? That middle ground eludes me. Where are the 40-something guys? I really need a
real social life, do I ever.I think the 40 something men are doing their mid-life crisis(s) with the 20 something women.i have a great friend who is on her 4th marriage and is close to 50 (but on her u-turn), anyway before this marriage she had her boy toys (i was jealous and i'm 15 years younger then her) to play with, and then when she re-married, he's 10 years older. So i think it depends what you want- if you just want to play, nothing is wrong with the 20 year old guys (and yes this is California, Ted :-), but if the biological clock is ticking and you want family, why not go younger? i really don't think the double-standard applies anymore to women- just enjoy yourself- judy
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