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Posted by Emily E on February 11, 2002, at 13:29:11
Thank you posters and Dr. Bob.
For the past few days you have had a very calming affect on me. You have all helped me more than I can convey and more than you know.
Posted by IsoM on February 11, 2002, at 15:00:39
In reply to thank you - bit more to follow, posted by Emily E on February 11, 2002, at 13:29:11
Don't know how we did it, Emily, but very glad to hear we've been of benefit. All the more so when some have said the forums have become a little disruptive & want no part of it now. I'll look forward to your follow-up. :-)
Posted by Emily E on February 12, 2002, at 3:09:54
In reply to Re: thank you - bit more to follow » Emily E, posted by IsoM on February 11, 2002, at 15:00:39
> Don't know how we did it, Emily, but very glad to hear we've been of benefit. All the more so when some have said the forums have become a little disruptive & want no part of it now. I'll look forward to your follow-up. :-)
Wow and jeez. I am so amazed. I am sitting here looking at your words and can't believe that someone actually listened. You are good people.
Reading your words again and feeling a flicker of light and a good kind of sigh. That is 'sigh' - not 'sign'. Something that comes from deep within.
I will try to be brief. I am trying to sit tight.
White-knuckling it, so to speak.
I could type a million words right now. I suspect
I'm in some kind of manic phase. Very hard. Don't ever judge someone by their outward appearance. You never know what is going on with them. Phew.
As I said, very hard. Trying to keep it all within the boundaries.
Briefly. Alcoholic. Three treatments 15 years ago. Rehab, rehab and 9 month half way house. AA inside, outside and upside down. 10 meetings a week. Always felt there was something wrong. Something neve quite clicked.
Episodes during sobriety. Like wrong frames in a movie or odd chapters in a book. 'Phases' we call them. Husband - too tolerant all these years. Major effect on family. I have 4 children. We do not mention the episodes.
I'm off on tangents here. Focus.
Past three years I have been self medicating with alchohol. Two months, four months, almost a year of sobriety within that time frame of sobriety.
There is something wrong.
I am not better when I am sober.
It's horrible and exhausting. I am 48, I keep saying I am 50. I feel like am 90. I think I signed up for a 4 life stint this time around.
Cut to the chase. I have a million tangents in my mind.
Waiting for appointment. Major, very major to reach out and use the word 'mental'. Afraid of phone and afraid of driving.
April 4th is the day. 52 days.
My husband took Thursday off from work and spent all day on the phone. 30 calls I think.
I tried my brother, I tried the phone myself.
Major slaps on the hand.
This board is good.
Posted by Mair on February 12, 2002, at 9:53:12
In reply to Re: thank you - bit more to follow, posted by Emily E on February 12, 2002, at 3:09:54
Emily
I'm not sure I understand what's going on but what I'm hearing is that you've never been evaluated psychiatrically and that you do have an appointment with therapist or psychiatrist in April. Is this correct? How did you find someone to see and how did you make the appointment? I remember that it took me forever to decide that I needed to be seen (I should have picked up on things much more quickly because I had seen someone for depression 20 years before). Once I decided that what i was experiencing needed to be treated it seemed like forever before I could decide whom I should see, forever before i screwed up the courage to call, and then was deflated to find out that he was out of the country for at least a couple of more weeks. I left a message for him to call me when he got back and then waited interminably for that to happen. When he finally did call I made an appointment for maybe a week later (another interminable wait). He asked me on the phone if it was an emergency and I casually said no. Obviously I had waited that long - how could it be an emergency? Maybe not but the wait was horrible. You've taken a brave step but it would be helpful to know who it is that can't see you for another 7 plus weeks.
I'm not sure I understand the part about your husband and the phone. Could you explain that?
Thanks
Mair
Posted by Noa on February 12, 2002, at 19:17:22
In reply to Re: thank you - bit more to follow » Emily E, posted by Mair on February 12, 2002, at 9:53:12
When I first went to a therapist, I called, got put on a waiting list (public mental health center--something that rarely exists nowadays), and then a few weeks later when the therapist called to make an appointment, I felt I had lost my nerve and almost backed out, but he gently persisted and I went in.. So glad I did.
I think it is too bad you have to wait so long for the appointment. I think a lot of people lose their nerve and need to be seen right away because of that. Not to mention that you are really having a hard time of it.
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