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Posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 10:43:45
well, i see my T in a couple of hours. i'm feeling more positive today, which is good, but i am new to this whole thing and i worry that we won't *do* anything on those days. i have never really had much therapy that wasn't crisis management of some sort. For months with my former T it was just keeping me alive and reasonably sane and fucntional.
what happens when it's not crisis management?
i also have to bandage my hand. :o( i wish to god i had been stronger and resisted somehow. i just got to this almost trance like state and there was no thought whatsoever about *not* doing it. i dropped a ceramic dish which shattered on the floor. My trigger is glass. i wish i had chosen somewhere easier to hide too.
i am not able to talk about that with him right now. Last week i wanted to because i wanted to stop myself before anything happened. It's too late for that and so it gets tucked away until i feel safer there. i had been willing, i tried, to walk through the hard part to tell him had he persisted... just so i could not lose ground. But it's already happened so why go there now?
my symbol of bravery isn't worth much now. :o(
anyway.. i'm sure he'll be nice, and i'll be nice and we'll talk about the weather or something.
maddie, if you're reading this... i guess i'm still just cutting bait huh?
Posted by muffled on April 23, 2007, at 14:56:15
In reply to T today **SI triggers**, posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 10:43:45
> well, i see my T in a couple of hours. i'm feeling more positive today, which is good, but i am new to this whole thing and i worry that we won't *do* anything on those days. i have never really had much therapy that wasn't crisis management of some sort. For months with my former T it was just keeping me alive and reasonably sane and fucntional.
**yup, been there done that, think I going back to that now....
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> what happens when it's not crisis management?**then you work on stuff, ugh, then freak, and its back to the above.....
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> i also have to bandage my hand. :o( i wish to god i had been stronger and resisted somehow. i just got to this almost trance like state and there was no thought whatsoever about *not* doing it. i dropped a ceramic dish which shattered on the floor. My trigger is glass. i wish i had chosen somewhere easier to hide too.**Yeah, it happens...don't kick yourself bout it.
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> i am not able to talk about that with him right now. Last week i wanted to because i wanted to stop myself before anything happened. It's too late for that and so it gets tucked away until i feel safer there. i had been willing, i tried, to walk through the hard part to tell him had he persisted... just so i could not lose ground. But it's already happened so why go there now?**Never too late, there's always next time...
LET HIM SEE YOUR HAND. Maybe he will ask bout it.....
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> my symbol of bravery isn't worth much now. :o(**Still worth lots for the times you HAVE been brave, and times ahead when you WILL be again. We ALL slip from time to time. We human.
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> anyway.. i'm sure he'll be nice, and i'll be nice and we'll talk about the weather or something.**Sometimes the most inane thing will lead to a great session.....sometimes you think you got good 'stuff' and nothing happens....T is crazymaking!!! LOL!
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> maddie, if you're reading this... i guess i'm still just cutting bait huh?
>Ya!!!LOL. Go fishing kid!!!!
I know its hard.
Take care.
Muffled
Posted by canadagirl on April 23, 2007, at 21:20:53
In reply to T today **SI triggers**, posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 10:43:45
I'm sorry you had a rough time with this. I hope you had a good session and were as honest as you could be at the time, with him. One good thing is, schema therapists are very accepting and very outwardly caring. So I hope that helps you down the road. Hang in there.
Posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 23:17:26
In reply to Re: T today **SI triggers**, posted by muffled on April 23, 2007, at 14:56:15
i couldn't do it.. let him see i mean. i got to the appt and realised i forgot the bandage so i told the receptionist i would be right back and then bolted to a pharmacy to get one.. was late for my appt because of that.
i couldn't because i feel so bad about failing.
Posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 23:20:10
In reply to Re: T today **SI triggers** » gazo, posted by canadagirl on April 23, 2007, at 21:20:53
he does seem caring.. but we are still feeling our way around how we communicate. He said today that he has learned from my feedback already.. as i am extremely hypersensitive and i examine that.. so i am having trouble with what or how he says something but i tell him that. i have major trust issues.. and that has to be bridged before i can be open with him about this.
much love and peace
Posted by muffled on April 24, 2007, at 1:31:32
In reply to Re: T today **SI triggers** » muffled, posted by gazo on April 23, 2007, at 23:17:26
> i couldn't do it.. let him see i mean. i got to the appt and realised i forgot the bandage so i told the receptionist i would be right back and then bolted to a pharmacy to get one.. was late for my appt because of that.
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> i couldn't because i feel so bad about failing.
>**Naw, not failed Gazo. You COPED. Mebbe not in the worlds best way...but in a way you knew how, and in a way that was ALOT better than other ways you(and ME) been known to cope.....
So IMHO you didn't fail. You did what you needed to do to get by. Mebbe soon you can learn some better alternatives. Go easy on yourself.
(Hey and stop kicking my *ss outta chat eh! LOL!)
muffled
Posted by gazo on April 24, 2007, at 9:14:31
In reply to Re: T today **SI triggers** » gazo, posted by muffled on April 24, 2007, at 1:31:32
but muffled dahling... you're so much fun to boot outta chat! :P hahaha.. you rock girl.
Thank you for all the encouragement last night. It helps.
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