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Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
Yes, he called this morning, and we talked a little. He said he wants me to come in(which sounded genuine, he never has said that before), he didn't have any cancellations so far today, but at least I can come in a day early. He was his usual nice self. I felt relieved.
He said we will talk about me being not thinking he wants to see me anymore in my appoinmtent.Oh, boy, what does this mean? Kinda scary going in if he has a topic already planned. Yikes! Can I just hide under a blanket?I ended by saying that I didn't think he was a big jerk, just a little one. LOL Well he WAS. But I guess he talked me into seeing him again.I think this should be okay.
He told me to stop taking Ambien CR. He said not getting enough sleep is better than what that stuff is doing to me. So I will try tonight not taking it. I wonder if there is something I could take instead, maybe something natural.
Well I haven't processed all of this yet, I think I will feel better for seeing him, I am still nervous about it. I am not sure what I will disclose yet. It seems like we have a lot to talk about. I guess just reestablishing our relationship should come first. Just tell me I am doing the right thing, convince me, please, because my mind still is cloudy. Am I nuts for trusting him again?
It was nice to actually talk to him instead of the voice mail. He sounded like himself again, that is comforting to know. Maybe this will work out. I need someone to care, I feel like I am alone, and falling. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.....
Posted by B2chica on January 6, 2006, at 10:34:02
In reply to Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
i'm so happy your going to see him. that takes courage and strength, good for you!
i KNOW you can hf. i'm glad you get to go in a day early too. i think i would be a little nervous too, but i know you'll be fine. just be honest with yourself and him. i think reestablishing your relationship is Really needed here. if he does have interest in you he should referr you to someone else, and take it from there.
You Are doing the right thing, you ARE.
i know i hate leaving messages too, it's much better to hear their voices.
afterall, maybe he really was having an off week?i care
you are NOT alone. if you think your falling i have really long hair (like rupunzel!) grab on. i've got your hand and will NOT let go as long as you need.i know you can, i know you can, i KNOW you can!
b2c.
Posted by Tabitha on January 6, 2006, at 11:27:33
In reply to Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
I think it's important to tell him the whole picture, so he'll understand why you reacted so strongly. But I respect that you might not feel ready to do that after such an emotional few days. Good luck...
Posted by fairywings on January 6, 2006, at 11:57:04
In reply to Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
I'm glad you're going in hf. You sound so much better.
fw
Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:35:06
In reply to Re: Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. L, posted by B2chica on January 6, 2006, at 10:34:02
Thanks B2, you have no idea how much your post means to me. I just hope I don't make you go bald by me hanging on to your hair, that was so sweet of you to offer. It actually was one of the first smiles I have had in several days. Thank you.
I don't think my T and I are going to run off with each other anytime soon. I still need him as a T, and that is all I will expect from him. I don't believe anything would happend during theapy, he is too ethical for that. But in the future, who knows? It has happened before, but I am not going to hold my breath. (even if he is sexy as heck, and I dream of that) lol
Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:37:31
In reply to Re: Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL » happyflower, posted by Tabitha on January 6, 2006, at 11:27:33
> I think it's important to tell him the whole picture, so he'll understand why you reacted so strongly. But I respect that you might not feel ready to do that after such an emotional few days. Good luck...
Yeah, I am going to take it slow on Monday, and let him lead for once. I will take it one minute by one minute, but it all will come out eventually. I need a "feel good" session for especially since the last one left such a bad taste in my mouth. Thanks for the luck, I am going to need it. :)
Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:40:22
In reply to Re: Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL » happyflower, posted by fairywings on January 6, 2006, at 11:57:04
Thanks FW, do I really sound better, my mind still like it is foggy. I am even having trouble typing this. I hope I am making the right decesion. I really "need" him now more than ever. I have reached too many dark thoughts, that I thought I would never have thought. I need to tell him.
Posted by tryingtobewise on January 6, 2006, at 18:01:20
In reply to Re: Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 15:40:22
Hang in there HF! It will get better. All my best to you.
:)
Kim
Posted by Tamar on January 6, 2006, at 19:43:46
In reply to Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL, posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
I hope it goes well. I know it’s been quite an emotional rollercoaster recently. You’ve been having a pretty tough time and you need your T to stay solid and be there for you. And I’m sure that he *does* care about you very much, even if he’s sometimes a little jerk… Seeing his fallible side can’t have been very pretty though…
I think you are doing absolutely the right thing by trusting him again, and it takes a lot of courage to do that, so make sure you congratulate yourself for how brave you are being. And don’t be afraid of letting him know how hard it is for you.
I’ll be thinking about you on Monday (((((Happyflower)))))
Posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 7:51:19
In reply to Re: Well I am going to see the little jerk Mon. LOL » happyflower, posted by Tamar on January 6, 2006, at 19:43:46
Last night I didn't take the sleeping meds, still had trouble getting and staying asleep, but yet I don't feel high this morning and my mind is clear once again.
It is weird becausue the meds were only suppose to last 8hours, but for me, it lasted double that. Then after the effects wore off, I was really tired. Now I am just tired.
So did I overeact because of the meds or because what my T did to me? Hmmmm. (even though he does share some of the blame) Well I off to go exercise, have a great morning you babblers you. LOL So now I will show up "normal" to my appointment and my T is going to think WTF? LOL
Posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 15:09:04
In reply to Don't do drugs, they make you insane., posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 7:51:19
Yup, as I getting my coffee at the gym, he comes in the door. I didn't even notice because I was in my own head from the yoga class, half asleep. Then all of sudden I hear my name being called. I look all around and then I spot him smiling at me walking by. Okay, can I just die on the spot. LOL There was people everywhere. What is he trying to do, make me insane? I couldn't even say anything I was stunned. He even had jeans on which was interesting. LOL What did I get myself into this time? Am I crazy? How would YOU feel?
Posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 15:10:51
In reply to I saw my T(even smaller jerk) today, posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 15:09:04
Posted by madeline on January 7, 2006, at 21:05:09
In reply to I saw my T(even smaller jerk) today, posted by happyflower on January 7, 2006, at 15:09:04
i think I would switch gyms or therapists.
He was probably just ensuring that you wouldn't feel ignored in case you saw him.
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