Posted by happyflower on January 6, 2006, at 10:18:32
Yes, he called this morning, and we talked a little. He said he wants me to come in(which sounded genuine, he never has said that before), he didn't have any cancellations so far today, but at least I can come in a day early. He was his usual nice self. I felt relieved.
He said we will talk about me being not thinking he wants to see me anymore in my appoinmtent.Oh, boy, what does this mean? Kinda scary going in if he has a topic already planned. Yikes! Can I just hide under a blanket?I ended by saying that I didn't think he was a big jerk, just a little one. LOL Well he WAS. But I guess he talked me into seeing him again.I think this should be okay.
He told me to stop taking Ambien CR. He said not getting enough sleep is better than what that stuff is doing to me. So I will try tonight not taking it. I wonder if there is something I could take instead, maybe something natural.
Well I haven't processed all of this yet, I think I will feel better for seeing him, I am still nervous about it. I am not sure what I will disclose yet. It seems like we have a lot to talk about. I guess just reestablishing our relationship should come first. Just tell me I am doing the right thing, convince me, please, because my mind still is cloudy. Am I nuts for trusting him again?
It was nice to actually talk to him instead of the voice mail. He sounded like himself again, that is comforting to know. Maybe this will work out. I need someone to care, I feel like I am alone, and falling. I think I can, I think I can, I think I can.....
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