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Posted by partlycloudy on June 7, 2005, at 20:26:06
In reply to Re: Approximate relationships » cricket, posted by Dinah on June 7, 2005, at 19:50:10
How did it feel to meet the Babblers in person - was it comfortable for you?
pc
Posted by pegasus on June 8, 2005, at 8:46:17
In reply to Chapter 3.The Therapist's Power, posted by Dinah on May 29, 2005, at 9:48:25
Is anyone ready to talk about chapter 4 yet? Sorry if I'm rushing you.
This chapter is probably the reason that I originally bought the book. Boundaries are so confusing when you first get into therapy. No one explains them completely ahead of time. And if they do discuss them, it's so confusing to understand the reasons behind them. This is where I had the most trouble with my ex-T, and where this book helped me the most.
And then there's the titillation factor with this chapter. Freud took clients on vacation with him? Ferenczi let clients sit on his lap and kiss him? Lazarus invites them to play tennis with him and his wife? Hoo ha! It's appalling, and appealing all at the same time. I think, "If only!" and then, "Thank god I didn't get caught up in that mess!"
Beyond that, though, I loved the section on Basic Rules. Finally, someone lays it all out. And, then right away I notice that my ex-T violated some of these. Rule: Should not self disclose particularly intimate material. He told me when he got a vasectomy, for heavens sake! But he was making a point (no, not that one) that was relevant to my therapy, so it was ok.
But the really great part of this chapter is the section on Thinking about Boundaries and the Symbolic Meaning of Boundaries. Once I read this, I could really make sense of the confusing therapy relationship a lot better. I finally was able to see the boundaries as protecting me, and as facilitating my therapy. I think the key is in asking myself, why would I want these boundaries to shift? What do these boundaries represent to me? And then I start to see them as valuable to *me* and not just protecting my T.
It makes me think of the time I asked my T if I could hug him, fully expecting that he'd say yes. It just seemed natural within the moment. But instead, he said that although he had the same impulse, he wanted to talk about it first, because we'd never touched each other in any way, and adding in a physical dimension was a big deal. At the time I felt misunderstood, and incorrectly suspected of bad motives. But after reading this chapter, I could see that he was respecting the potential symbolism behind the hug, and the power that it could have for me. Basically, he was being a good therapist.
Oh, but too bad I couldn't appreciate that at the time!
I'll be interested to see what comes up for the rest of you around boundaries.
pegasus
Posted by Jazzed on June 8, 2005, at 11:10:38
In reply to Chapter 4, posted by pegasus on June 8, 2005, at 8:46:17
In thinking about boundary violations, my first shrink was SO bad that he told me how much he hated my father and wished he could be my father, talked about other patients to me - under the guise of it being in my best interest, talked to me about his wife and her problems, and finally told me that if I moved away from home, he'd help me find an apartment and he'd take care of me! That put such an intense fear in me, and of course I didn't do it, but I wonder what would've happened to me if I had! About a year after I'd left therapy with him, he married a patient. I do think he loved me in a paternal sense, and really did want to take care of me, but good golly! BTW, He never made any sexual overatures toward me, thank goodness. I sure wish I had known then what I now know about therapy, and I'm sure things would have gone much differently, but I was a teen when I started with him.Jazzy
Posted by messadivoce on June 8, 2005, at 21:05:07
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 Extreme boundary violations, posted by Jazzed on June 8, 2005, at 11:10:38
I have to admit that this is the second chapter in the book that I skipped to, after the chapter on "I'm in love with my Therapist." I was kind of disappointed in how general the "rules" were, in a way. And it makes me paranoid about my relationship with my former T. He was very professional all of the time, it's true. But there were moments, here and there, where the professional context of the relationship was forgotten by both of us, and we were just two people in the room.
These moments are hard to explain. But even though I know pretty much no hard facts about his life, I did get glimpses into how he felt about me. He liked me, I know that. He got swept up into the high emotionalism of the termination. He let me write him after termination and he wrote back. He responded in a therapeutic capacity, as far as the context of his replies.
It was three weeks after my termination that I stopped by to say hi. That was when he told me that he could no longer write me, that it was a boundary violation, and that he was not doing me any favors by staying in constant contact with me. It was the closest he every came to admitting a mistake. Of course, I was crushed. I felt like it was all my fault, that somehow I should have known not to write to him and be happy with his responses.
That was his biggest flaw, I think. Not being able to admit his mistakes. In the end, that hurt me more than the boundaries themselves. I can relate to the "good cop bad cop" thing too. Even though my head knows that he cut off communication to protect me, my heart has been screaming that he did it to protect *himself* from how much I needed him; so that he could go on his merry way with his postdoctoral fellowship and license and family and leave me with...
He left me with a lot. Good things and bad.
Today all day I felt as though something was not right. I kept thinking about him, more than usual, and wondering if it had been a full year since that last time I saw him. I came home and checked through my old e-mail messages. Sure enough. It will be one year ago tomorrow.
Posted by Jazzed on June 8, 2005, at 22:08:21
In reply to Re: Chapter 4, posted by messadivoce on June 8, 2005, at 21:05:07
Posted by Tamar on June 9, 2005, at 17:40:39
In reply to Re: Chapter 4, posted by messadivoce on June 8, 2005, at 21:05:07
> Today all day I felt as though something was not right. I kept thinking about him, more than usual, and wondering if it had been a full year since that last time I saw him. I came home and checked through my old e-mail messages. Sure enough. It will be one year ago tomorrow.Awww... that's tough. I'm thinking of you. I hope your memories are very sweet and not too bitter.
Big hugs,
Tamar
Posted by annierose on June 10, 2005, at 21:28:17
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 » messadivoce, posted by Tamar on June 9, 2005, at 17:40:39
Having just finshed this chapter, I just wanted to quickly comment, that she uses the expression "approximate relationship" frequently throughout this chapter. One that I could easily find was near the end:
"Boundaries remind client and therapist that their relationship is approximate, that in its therapeutic capacity there are things that it can never be, but that what it is can be relied upon."
Regarding this chapter, I feel my T has solid boundaries. I know very little about her. She has rarely shared any personal stories and never speaks of other clients (even in a general sense). But I feel I know her. I don't know her in a specific sense of what is her favorite color, what music she listens to, what books she reads ... I know her heart. I'm comfortable within the boundaries. I rarely will ask a personal question (I can think of only one question I asked, how many children she had & their sexes, and she did answer).
Yes, part of me would like to know more. But another part asks "why?". I don't push the boundaries. I accept them as part of the process.
I saw another T quite briefly, maybe 2 or 3 sessions, decades ago, and she had NO boundaries. It actually drove me nuts. My 45 minute session, lasted 2 hours. I needed to go back to work and I didn't know how to say "time's up". And she talked on and on about herself and other clients. I remember thinking, I think I prefer a blank slate to this mumble jumble.
Posted by Dinah on June 11, 2005, at 10:43:36
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 and approximate relationships, posted by annierose on June 10, 2005, at 21:28:17
Posted by gardenergirl on June 11, 2005, at 12:01:42
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 - I need to catch up. :( (nm), posted by Dinah on June 11, 2005, at 10:43:36
Posted by littleone on June 11, 2005, at 18:36:32
In reply to Chapter 3.The Therapist's Power, posted by Dinah on May 29, 2005, at 9:48:25
Chapter 3 was a big one for me. In my head, I know a lot of these things are completely wrong, but below are my beliefs about my T's power:
He has the power to make me feel good or bad.
He knows how therapy works. He knows how far along the therapy process I am, what I can expect next. Knowledge is power.
He knows how to fix me. He knows what my faulty beliefs are. When we talk about an issue, he knows a lot more than what he shares.
He has control over the whole therapy process. It seems like he tries to give me control by directing what we talk about, but he knows that I would talk about anything *he* wants to.
He has the power to make *anything* therapeautic. I could go in wanting to talk about lamps/aardvarks/Bruce Springsteen and he could still make it a therapeautic session.
I don't blindly follow his advice, but I'm highly suggestable by him. He has that power over me.
He controls what I know about him. He knows more about me than I know about him.
He knows the secrets of life. All the answers. He knows how to be happy.
He knows what "healthy" is like.
I need him to like/love me. He couldn't care less what I thought of him.
I am one client of many.
He can see things in me that I can't.
I need to fit into his schedule. His busyness decides if I can see him extra or not. Regardless of my perceived need.
He controls the boundaries.
He's always cool, calm and collected. I react strongly to things.
Every single word he utters has huge power.
He can see more clearly how much I have/haven't progressed.
He knows my "tells". I am unable to lie or hide from him.
He has the power to hurt or heal me. That's a biggy.
Posted by annierose on June 12, 2005, at 6:50:23
In reply to Re: Chapter 3.The Therapist's Power, posted by littleone on June 11, 2005, at 18:36:32
To quote Glenda, the good witch
"You had the power all along."Yes, therapists are important figures in one's life. But don't forget about you! From your list, I was surprised how much "power" you give your T. It's your therapy.
Posted by pegasus on June 15, 2005, at 16:33:53
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 and approximate relationships, posted by annierose on June 10, 2005, at 21:28:17
Thanks for pointing out her use of the term approximate relationship. I think this might be the most clear explanation for the term that she provides. I guess it is meant to indicate that the therapy relationship is limited or lacking. Frankly, I don't really like framing it that way. I disagree that the relationship is approximating anything else. It can bring up things from other relationships, but it is really an approximation of them? I liked my definition better. :)
pegasus
Posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 17:43:46
In reply to Re: Chapter 4, posted by messadivoce on June 8, 2005, at 21:05:07
Posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 17:45:41
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 and approximate relationships » annierose, posted by pegasus on June 15, 2005, at 16:33:53
I agree. I tend to think it's a therapeutic relationship. As different and well defined as a friendship relationship, or a love relationship, or a family relationship. It's special in itself.
Posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 17:51:12
In reply to Chapter 4, posted by pegasus on June 8, 2005, at 8:46:17
I have always liked this chapter. I think it did help me figure out how and why the boundaries came to be where they are. One of my favorite stories in the book comes from this chapter, where the therapist offers her sweater. And one of the saddest, where the therapist asks for a hug when he's upset, then calls the client greedy when she wants to continue them.
I generally like my therapist's boundaries. He's not really strict with some of them. I know his wife's name and child's name. I don't think that was on purpose, but once he called them by name once, I guess he figured it was silly and obvious to go back to impersonal ways of referring to them. I know bits of his life and his history. Generally the facts come up in the course of my therapy.
Right now I think the boundaries are working against me. I'm having trouble connecting, and the boundaries aren't helping any.
But in general, I like the way Lott explains them as being for our benefit as well as theirs.
But......
I guess I dislike the idea, however sensible, that my therapist needs protection from me, or that he wouldn't be able to maintain our relationship without those boundaries.
Posted by Dinah on June 19, 2005, at 21:15:19
In reply to Re: Chapter 4 - Boundaries, posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 17:51:12
That was my favorite message from this chapter. That transference is not a therapy limited phenomenon. By discussing how the same thing is at work in other relationships in our lives, it takes the idea out of that nasty place that therapists seem to place it when they dismiss our feelings as transference. (Especially if they just so happen to be uncomfortable or defensive at the moment.)
Yeah, maybe so, and so what?
Many of our feelings toward many people in our lives contain elements of transference. That doesn't make them any less real.
I don't think it's possible to deny that transference exists. I remember her story at the beginning of the chapter about the three women going to see the same female therapist, and the different person each described. It made me smile.
You only need to look at the Admin board to see how different people see Dr. Bob. He gives us such limited information about himself, and different people build different visions of who he is based on that limited information, and doubtless also based on past experiences with people in authority, or people with similar styles, or who knows what other of the limited characteristics he objectively displays. The same thing happened with my favorite professor in college. He was as good as a Rorschach test. People described him completely differently, probably based more on them than him.
I know that there are one or two personal characteristics that can turn me off a person entirely because I base my opinion about their entire personality on that. Totally unfair of me.
The one thing she mentioned briefly, and maybe she gets back to later, is the role of the therapeutic situation in developing transference.
My personal opinion is that human brains are programmed to respond in certain ways to certain types of relationships. And therapy mimics other relationships. Since we haven't had therapy for millenia, or long enough to develop ingrained responses to the therapeutic situation, our brains respond as they might to similar situations.
So IMHO, a major cause for erotic transferences is the similarity of therapy to love relationships. There is increasing intimate disclosure (however one sided), acceptance, the listening and attentive posture most closely associated with a lover. I think it's sort of normal for erotic feelings to crop up in those circumstances because our brains are programmed to respond that way.
It can also mimic a parental relationship in some ways. Especially in the lack of reciprocity. And we can respond in the ways that are programmed in us to respond as children to parents.
Maybe our life circumstances can influence which of the ways we respond. My erotic potential is very stunted, so I would respond as a child to a parent.
I'm not sure if I buy into the analytic transference models. It's possible I guess.
Posted by Tamar on June 20, 2005, at 5:03:02
In reply to Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anymore, posted by Dinah on June 19, 2005, at 21:15:19
> That was my favorite message from this chapter. That transference is not a therapy limited phenomenon. By discussing how the same thing is at work in other relationships in our lives, it takes the idea out of that nasty place that therapists seem to place it when they dismiss our feelings as transference. (Especially if they just so happen to be uncomfortable or defensive at the moment.)
Yeah, I agree. It’s made me think quite a bit about where transference happens outside therapy. For example I’ve always said that when I met my husband it was love at first sight, and now I realise how much of that was transference (but he did turn out to be a honey!). And I can see how my students might be affected by transference towards me, which helps me a lot, particularly if they’re annoyed about something.
> I know that there are one or two personal characteristics that can turn me off a person entirely because I base my opinion about their entire personality on that. Totally unfair of me.
And yet those are real feelings. It’s not like you can just switch them off. Besides, transference can be quite useful in helping people judge which kinds of people they’re likely to get along with (or not). Despite its apparent shortcomings, transference can work quite well as shorthand when getting to know new people.
> My personal opinion is that human brains are programmed to respond in certain ways to certain types of relationships. And therapy mimics other relationships. Since we haven't had therapy for millenia, or long enough to develop ingrained responses to the therapeutic situation, our brains respond as they might to similar situations.
Yes, I agree. And if our brains start recognising the therapeutic relationship as distinctive, maybe it won’t be so therapeutic any more!
> So IMHO, a major cause for erotic transferences is the similarity of therapy to love relationships. There is increasing intimate disclosure (however one sided), acceptance, the listening and attentive posture most closely associated with a lover. I think it's sort of normal for erotic feelings to crop up in those circumstances because our brains are programmed to respond that way.
Yes, and I also think it might have a lot to do with the reasons we’re in therapy (maybe that’s what you mean by life circumstances below?). In my case perhaps it’s about erotic potential that’s been neglected… or something like that.
> It can also mimic a parental relationship in some ways. Especially in the lack of reciprocity. And we can respond in the ways that are programmed in us to respond as children to parents.
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> Maybe our life circumstances can influence which of the ways we respond. My erotic potential is very stunted, so I would respond as a child to a parent.I wonder about this. I wonder if it could go either way. Either a person who doesn’t experience much erotic inclination for others would experience no erotic transference in therapy, or that person might find that the therapeutic relationship is the one place where erotic feelings could develop. I suppose the latter possibility depends on the idea that erotic feelings can be deeply repressed. What struck me about this chapter is that it’s so hard to pin down the reasons why a person might have a particular kind of transference in a particular therapeutic relationship!
> I'm not sure if I buy into the analytic transference models. It's possible I guess.
Do you mean all that oedipal and pre-oedipal stuff? I think I’m willing to accept that there may be some basis in truth there, but I think its significance has often been rather overstated.
I liked the chapter on transference because although I knew it was normal, it was very helpful to read about different ways it could work. And I was particularly glad to see Lott call for some serious scientific enquiry into transference.
Posted by Dinah on June 21, 2005, at 0:09:25
In reply to Re: Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anymore » Dinah, posted by Tamar on June 20, 2005, at 5:03:02
> > I know that there are one or two personal characteristics that can turn me off a person entirely because I base my opinion about their entire personality on that. Totally unfair of me.
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> And yet those are real feelings. It’s not like you can just switch them off. Besides, transference can be quite useful in helping people judge which kinds of people they’re likely to get along with (or not). Despite its apparent shortcomings, transference can work quite well as shorthand when getting to know new people.Yes, it can. That's true. But if I use the wrong characteristics to judge people by, I might lose out on getting to know a lot of terrific people.
> > My personal opinion is that human brains are programmed to respond in certain ways to certain types of relationships. And therapy mimics other relationships. Since we haven't had therapy for millenia, or long enough to develop ingrained responses to the therapeutic situation, our brains respond as they might to similar situations.
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> Yes, I agree. And if our brains start recognising the therapeutic relationship as distinctive, maybe it won’t be so therapeutic any more!
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Yes, possibly. :) But since I am a big fan of supportive psychotherapy, I have a special fondness for therapy as a unique sort of valuable relationship.
> > So IMHO, a major cause for erotic transferences is the similarity of therapy to love relationships. There is increasing intimate disclosure (however one sided), acceptance, the listening and attentive posture most closely associated with a lover. I think it's sort of normal for erotic feelings to crop up in those circumstances because our brains are programmed to respond that way.
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> Yes, and I also think it might have a lot to do with the reasons we’re in therapy (maybe that’s what you mean by life circumstances below?). In my case perhaps it’s about erotic potential that’s been neglected… or something like that.
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> > It can also mimic a parental relationship in some ways. Especially in the lack of reciprocity. And we can respond in the ways that are programmed in us to respond as children to parents.
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> > Maybe our life circumstances can influence which of the ways we respond. My erotic potential is very stunted, so I would respond as a child to a parent.
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> I wonder about this. I wonder if it could go either way. Either a person who doesn’t experience much erotic inclination for others would experience no erotic transference in therapy, or that person might find that the therapeutic relationship is the one place where erotic feelings could develop. I suppose the latter possibility depends on the idea that erotic feelings can be deeply repressed. What struck me about this chapter is that it’s so hard to pin down the reasons why a person might have a particular kind of transference in a particular therapeutic relationship!Yes, I guess that's something that is best explored in therapy. What did strike me was that some women found themselves having similar transferences with all their therapists, while others had different ones with different therapists, and none at all with some. Which could have at least two possible causes, I suppose. Perhaps the women who all had the same sort of transference always sought out the same sort of therapist. Or perhaps they are especially strongly programmed to respond in a certain way.
I've seen several mental health professionals over my lifetime. Not all therapists. But the most common feeling I had in this admittedly small sample was intense dislike. Then a few that I felt discomfort with for one reason or another, but not dislike. And exactly two (well, maybe three depending on definitions) that I had positive feelings about. Hmmmm... wonder what that says about me?
> > I'm not sure if I buy into the analytic transference models. It's possible I guess.
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> Do you mean all that oedipal and pre-oedipal stuff? I think I’m willing to accept that there may be some basis in truth there, but I think its significance has often been rather overstated.I think partly it's because analytic concepts are like trigonometry to me. I can grasp them momentarily, but I can't get a firm hold on them and they flitter away from me.
> I liked the chapter on transference because although I knew it was normal, it was very helpful to read about different ways it could work. And I was particularly glad to see Lott call for some serious scientific enquiry into transference.
Yes. I remember the most useful part of this book to me when I first began reading it was learning what I didn't feel for my therapist. :) It would be great if researchers put greater efforts into understanding it. Thus far those who are most likely to want well defined research studies are also those who have been most likely to dismiss transference altogether. Perhaps as it becomes clear that transference happens whether you encourage it or not, it will be considered a more legitimate phenomenon to study.
Posted by Jazzed on June 21, 2005, at 2:42:17
In reply to Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anymore, posted by Dinah on June 19, 2005, at 21:15:19
Ooooo, this is really interesting - the way you interpret things. You are a real thinker. I never have deep thoughts like these. I love your take on transference, and how the brain is programmed, will have to save these comments. They make so much more sense to me than some ludicrous desire to have an erotic relationship with my father!
Jazzy
Posted by Dinah on June 21, 2005, at 6:23:54
In reply to Re: Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anymore » Dinah, posted by Jazzed on June 21, 2005, at 2:42:17
It's not original thought. I just don't know where to credit the source. :) I read so much, and if I like an idea I squirrel it away.
Posted by Jazzed on June 21, 2005, at 7:11:30
In reply to Re: Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anym » Jazzed, posted by Dinah on June 21, 2005, at 6:23:54
> It's not original thought. I just don't know where to credit the source. :) I read so much, and if I like an idea I squirrel it away.
LOL, well at least you can take credit for remembering! I can't remember anything these days!Jazzy
Posted by pegasus on June 21, 2005, at 9:01:14
In reply to Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anymore, posted by Dinah on June 19, 2005, at 21:15:19
> You only need to look at the Admin board to see how different people see Dr. Bob. He gives us such limited information about himself, and different people build different visions of who he is based on that limited information, and doubtless also based on past experiences with people in authority, or people with similar styles, or who knows what other of the limited characteristics he objectively displays.Yes, exactly. It's fascinating. I've always been amazed at the people to conclude that Dr. Bob is a malevolent or at least neglectful person. The way I see him is so caring. But who knows what he really thinks of everything. The truth is that he doesn't say much, and what he does say is usually about operation of the site. So we're putting our own interpretations on him.
I also completely agree about the nature of transference often being due to the similarity of the therapeutic relationship to other types of relationships. I always thought that any erotic feelings must be due to the intimate nature of the conversations, which I've only had in romantic relationships before. Because, frankly, my ex-T was never my type, romantically speaking. We're all pattern seeking animals, us humans, so when we recognize part of the romantic pattern, I think we tend to lump in all of the other parts, too.
Same for the parental transference, although I think it can be more instinctual than conscious. Mammals have instincts, or brain wiring, or whatever you want to call it, that encourage us to attach to safe others in a child-parent way. Come to think of it, maybe the same is true for romantic relationships. In other words, maybe it's more than pattern seeking. Maybe it's also physiological.
I don't buy the whole oedipal business at all. It just does not make sense to me. And it seems as though it is based on Freud's ideas, more than on any real evidence. It just seems like such a complicated scenario to believe on the basis of one brilliant guy's notion.
pegasus
Posted by Dinah on June 22, 2005, at 2:01:33
In reply to Re: Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anym, posted by pegasus on June 21, 2005, at 9:01:14
I really do think it's got physiological underpinnings. Evolutionary purpose.
I wonder if anyone has studied the possibility.
Posted by Dinah on June 27, 2005, at 21:47:08
In reply to Re: Ch 5 - Transference, Not Just for Therapy Anym » pegasus, posted by Dinah on June 22, 2005, at 2:01:33
There were some interesting stories in this chapter.
I must be in the mood to apply everything I read to myself and my therapy. In evaluating the overall message, that ideally therapists will take a middle ground on the concept of shared reality - admitting that while part of how the client reacts is based on their past, they shouldn't discount their own role - I realized how very good my therapist is at walking this line. I don't recall him ever discounting what I've said by calling it transference. He's always willing to admit the role he's played in our interactions. But he might also bring up patterns of behavior on my part, or past experiences, and relate them to what's going on as well. He does that very carefully, I must admit. He says I bite!
I was trying to figure out how much transference plays a role in my interactions with others. How much one or two characteristics might lead me to generalize about a person's entire being, based on prior experience.
I'm not sure that I do it that often with my parents. I don't assume anyone's like my father, in any way that counts. He's rather unique. And I don't *think* I do it much with my mother except with myself. If I see someone violating personal space at a party, I don't generally assume they're likely to swallow someone whole or invade them like my mother would. But if I see myself come anywhere close to violating someone's personal space, I immediately writhe in agony, thinking that I'll be an engulfer and invader like my mother.
I see it more at work with situations. Like, my mother left me at school after kindergarten in the days before aftercare, when you just didn't leave your kids at school. So I'd be sitting there wondering if she'd be a little late (she couldn't help being a little late, because of where she worked) or if she'd be two hours late. And getting angry and perhaps a bit scared. Probably looking around and thinking that I know Mama loves me, but there aren't any other kindergarteners alone in the schoolyard. If Mama really loved me, would she leave me alone? There aren't even any other kids close to kindergarten age in the schoolyard. Just some high school kids. Do their Mamas love them more than mine loves me? But of course she loves me, she can't help it. But... The teachers are gone. They've left to go pick up their little girls. Why hasn't Mama left to go pick up me? And yes it's fun to sit on the vice principal's desk. He doesn't know many kindergarteners by name, but he knows me. But sometimes the office people are close to picking up and going home by the time Mama comes. What will happen if they close the gates? Will they lock me inside or outside?
So when my therapist doesn't know whether or not he's going on vacation until the day before he leaves, I do feel like that little girl sitting on the steps peering down the street, and a lot of those old feelings come back.
So situationally, I think I experience transference.
And also in very closely related situations, I might experience it. I probably experienced some similarities between biofeedback guy and the pdoc from h*ll, and since they were both in the mental health profession and I was in a similar position to both, I probably made a few leaps forward in deciding what biofeedback guy was like, based on what I knew of the pdoc from h*ll.
Babble is another place where it's easy to do that.
I'll confess that I still have trouble with the stories that suggest that therapists fall in love or experience strong sexual attraction to their clients. It's so far outside my experience. I can understand a client falling for a therapist. The situation seems to be perfect for that. But I still can't manage to put my mind around the reverse. A therapist would obviously go into therapy understanding that it would be disastrous to feel anything sexual or romantic towards their clients. I just don't have the appropriate inner resources to concieve of an attraction being strong enough to overcome that. I suppose I can imagine noting an attraction, but I have trouble understanding that it could affect them enough to affect therapy. I'm sure that's a lack in me.
Posted by Tamar on June 28, 2005, at 3:34:17
In reply to Chapter 6: Gaslighting, posted by Dinah on June 27, 2005, at 21:47:08
I thought the ideas raised in the chapter on gaslighting were really important. Although therapists won’t tell us much about what they’re thinking or how they’re feeling, it’s inevitable that we’ll pick up on their emotions from time to time.
I was so angry when I read Andi’s story about her therapist blaming her for his sleepiness and claiming she wasn’t being genuine in therapy. Even though there was a happy ending, I still feel outraged that a therapist could mess with someone’s head in this way.
So I’m glad the theorists are now accepting that therapists don’t have a monopoly on reality. I think there’s still a tendency in the world in general to perceive mental illness as characterised by a failure to grasp reality.
> So when my therapist doesn't know whether or not he's going on vacation until the day before he leaves, I do feel like that little girl sitting on the steps peering down the street, and a lot of those old feelings come back.
How very distressing! The world is such a confusing place for small children. I can see how your therapist's holidays would evoke the same feelings.
> And also in very closely related situations, I might experience it. I probably experienced some similarities between biofeedback guy and the pdoc from h*ll, and since they were both in the mental health profession and I was in a similar position to both, I probably made a few leaps forward in deciding what biofeedback guy was like, based on what I knew of the pdoc from h*ll.
Yeah, but you could well have been right. I tend to think those kinds of transferences work to our advantage just as much as the ‘new friend’ transferences. If you’ve seen something you don’t like, it probably does go with other things you don’t like. I do believe in giving people second chances, but I have to admit I don’t often change my initial response to someone. Still, it has happened, so I’ll keep making the effort to get to know people a bit before I decide whether I’m going to like them. And I like most people!
> Babble is another place where it's easy to do that.
I think there’s something about communicating online that encourages transference. And it can take some time to get a feel for people’s personalities. I think there are still a few posters I confuse with other posters. One thing I find curious is that it takes me much less time to get a sense of someone who has a posting name that’s actually a name (like Dinah!) rather than an epithet.
> I'll confess that I still have trouble with the stories that suggest that therapists fall in love or experience strong sexual attraction to their clients. It's so far outside my experience. I can understand a client falling for a therapist. The situation seems to be perfect for that. But I still can't manage to put my mind around the reverse. A therapist would obviously go into therapy understanding that it would be disastrous to feel anything sexual or romantic towards their clients. I just don't have the appropriate inner resources to concieve of an attraction being strong enough to overcome that. I suppose I can imagine noting an attraction, but I have trouble understanding that it could affect them enough to affect therapy. I'm sure that's a lack in me.
I tend to think the strength of the attraction can lie in the therapist’s own transference: the attraction is out of proportion to the situation. A mild attraction is one thing, and I expect most therapists feel somewhat attracted to some of their clients some of the time. But a strong sexual desire for a client is probably based in transference or countertransference, I imagine, and therefore difficult to resolve quickly. All the more reason for therapists to be fully aware of their own issues!
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