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Posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 1:50:19
Today I saw a fancy new psychopharmacologist. For those of you who remember what I went through a while back, you may understand why it was so rough for me. I sat there shaking in his chair, babbling randomly, etc. No doubt he thought someone had forgotten to mention the streak of idiocy...
Our marriage counselor recommended this guy. He seemed quite nice, gave a lot of the "right" answers on issues that concern me -- like he was adament that communication with my therapist was important, since she knows me better than he will. All to the good.
The bad? Well, stating my history is always hard. I just feel so pathetic, when I realize how screwed up I've been for how very long. That's not pleasant.
And I panicked when he started talking about drugs to try. Right now, we didn't get through the whole intake, so I go back again in a week. He says we need to start a serotinergic drug, and I suspect he's right. (I'd actually come to the conclusion I needed something serotinergic, but I don't want to go that direction -- from fear.) I panicked, and did cry, and told him I didn't want to go back to being fat, stupid, and constipated. He said it wouldn't happen -- because we'd stop it if it tried. I know he meant to be reassuring -- but, again, panic. There was no rational being in that room with him just then...
Anyway, for this week, I go back up to 450 Wellbutrin, continue Ritalin as needed. And next week, we talk -- probably SSRI, I'm guessing Zoloft... {sigh} I may have a few panicky posts here soon... Please forgive me while I take a vacation from the land of reason...
And now, speaking of which, to bed with me...
Posted by Phillipa on October 18, 2006, at 10:02:24
In reply to New Pdoc today..., posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 1:50:19
Been there done that still doing it. And each time it seems to get harder. Good luck. Love phillipa
Posted by ClearSkies on October 18, 2006, at 13:17:39
In reply to New Pdoc today..., posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 1:50:19
It's hard to recite pharmaceutical history without feeling like somehow it's all OUR fault we've had to try all these medications. Not! Not! Not our fault. Repeat that with me, Racer, deep breaths. Not. our. fault.
I'm happy to hear that you're giving this pdoc a try. I do admit to giving in on the inevitable weight gain personally, but it did stop and stabilize. More importantly - and I have to keep telling myself this, believe it or not - is that my moods have stabilized. I am actually much, much better as a medicated and bigger person. Accepting this bigger person is an issue I deal with every day. In the end, I have had to make the trade in order to feel the relief I do from anxiety and depression.
here's a holy cannolli hug for you ((((Racer))))
CS
Posted by ed_uk on October 18, 2006, at 14:27:22
In reply to New Pdoc today..., posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 1:50:19
Dear Racie,
This new guy sounds quite good. Hope he treats you well :) Let us know how it goes.
Ed x
Posted by SFY on October 18, 2006, at 16:13:29
In reply to New Pdoc today..., posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 1:50:19
One thing I've done in the past to reduce the babbling idiot moments and realizing when I get home that I've forgotten a couple of important points was to produce a written summary of my history. I include a listing of all my past pdocs & therapists and a description of my current and past meds. It saves a lot of time and aggravation and pdocs appreciate being able to jump right in without having to transcribe your entire history by hand.
Posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 17:41:51
In reply to Re: New Pdoc today... » Racer, posted by SFY on October 18, 2006, at 16:13:29
> One thing I've done in the past to reduce the babbling idiot moments and realizing when I get home that I've forgotten a couple of important points was to produce a written summary of my history. I include a listing of all my past pdocs & therapists and a description of my current and past meds. It saves a lot of time and aggravation and pdocs appreciate being able to jump right in without having to transcribe your entire history by hand.
LoL! I took him my spreadsheet, with all my relevant information: meds, s/e's, hospitalizations, etc.
He used it as an example of the benefits of OCD...
;-)
It's something I also recommend people do. It is a pretty good practice -- helps make sure you don't forget something. (I forgot a drug on mine, since I had to make it over after a computer crash.)
Thanks for the advice.
Posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 17:45:08
In reply to Re: New Pdoc today... » Racer, posted by ClearSkies on October 18, 2006, at 13:17:39
> It's hard to recite pharmaceutical history without feeling like somehow it's all OUR fault we've had to try all these medications. Not! Not! Not our fault. Repeat that with me, Racer, deep breaths. Not. our. fault.
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>Actually, it's not the meds part that made me feel pathetic -- that I'm pretty neutral on. (Well, except for Dr EyeCandy changing three meds at once every few weeks -- that still irritates me, but that's another story...)
What bothers me is my history -- problems in childhood, problems in adolescence, problems in young adult hood, problems in middle age -- and where am I now? THAT'S the part that makes me feel so pathetic: how little I've managed to accomplish with all the time I've had.
I'm gonna go now, though, because this subject will make me cry. ((ClearSkies
Posted by ClearSkies on October 18, 2006, at 19:47:13
In reply to Re: New Pdoc today... » ClearSkies, posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 17:45:08
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> Actually, it's not the meds part that made me feel pathetic -- that I'm pretty neutral on. (Well, except for Dr EyeCandy changing three meds at once every few weeks -- that still irritates me, but that's another story...)
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Well, that was pretty bone-headed of me... nothing like misinterpreting a good friend :-o> What bothers me is my history -- problems in childhood, problems in adolescence, problems in young adult hood, problems in middle age -- and where am I now? THAT'S the part that makes me feel so pathetic: how little I've managed to accomplish with all the time I've had.
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> I'm gonna go now, though, because this subject will make me cry. ((ClearSkiesGeez, now you're crying. I am batting a thousand here.
OK, here's a do-over:
I think, in my oh-so-sensitive intuitiveness, that you have been through an awful lot. That is how many of us end up at babble. I'm not certain by whose standards you measure your success. To me, given your history, you are amazingly resilient and determined. As badly as you have felt in the past and the problems you have dealt with, you have doggedly pursued a better life for yourself.
You are strong and brave, Racer. Your compassion and knowledge help so many others, especially here. I wish you could see yourself with the same eyes I do.(((Racer
Posted by ed_uk on October 19, 2006, at 15:01:41
In reply to Re: New Pdoc today... » SFY, posted by Racer on October 18, 2006, at 17:41:51
Gosh Racie, a spreadsheet! I'm impressed.
(((RACER)))
Ed
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