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Posted by Tepiaca on November 29, 2004, at 21:47:32
I entered to a job as an engenieer . I have no experience , this is my first time I have work on my life .
I feel so sad how unproductive I am . I just suffer more and more . I canīt interact with people . Iīm so afraid of them ,and more of the bosses . I try to hide from problems , and I dont face them . This morning I went to a meeting , I felt so observed and critized for being the new guy . At the end I was supossed to talk about some new problems and how to fix them rigth away , I couldnīt join the group . It was like I felt rejected by all . I was so scared ,so I leave ad went to the bathroom . Suicide is my mind , I canīt work . I did not born to have middle jobs I always wanted to be something important in a company , to be the best
and I canīt even make a regular easy job. I hate this lifeIm adding 25mg Seroquel to Nardil 45+klono .5mg
"The best CBT doctor" in the region is a scumbag . He does not know anything about CBT . I left his consultory room worse than when I enter. BE objective is all he can said , what kind of CBT is that? . Im not lying he only has told me that .And he is from harvad . He ask me what medicine I should take with Nardil because he does not have experience on MAOIS . basically Im precribing my own meds. Im screwed
Posted by owenus32 on November 29, 2004, at 21:55:38
In reply to so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by Tepiaca on November 29, 2004, at 21:47:32
Hi,
I know how you feel , I do. When I started in Advertising it was at a Madison ave agency in New York and I was terrified of everyone. It did hurt me career wise but at my next job things were different. I didn't have the panic attacks around people and I didn't feel like they were observing me to the point where i'd get panicked. I had the same experience as you and I got better so don't think about killing yourself. You got a degree in engineering which proves you are smarter than the average joe and you'll be able to have a great career and life if you stick with it. Maybe you need diff meds, id unno, maybe you need to pray or exercise but the answer is out there and people care or I wouldn;t be writing this to a complete stranger!
> I entered to a job as an engenieer . I have no experience , this is my first time I have work on my life .
> I feel so sad how unproductive I am . I just suffer more and more . I canīt interact with people . Iīm so afraid of them ,and more of the bosses . I try to hide from problems , and I dont face them . This morning I went to a meeting , I felt so observed and critized for being the new guy . At the end I was supossed to talk about some new problems and how to fix them rigth away , I couldnīt join the group . It was like I felt rejected by all . I was so scared ,so I leave ad went to the bathroom . Suicide is my mind , I canīt work . I did not born to have middle jobs I always wanted to be something important in a company , to be the best
> and I canīt even make a regular easy job. I hate this life
>
> Im adding 25mg Seroquel to Nardil 45+klono .5mg
>
> "The best CBT doctor" in the region is a scumbag . He does not know anything about CBT . I left his consultory room worse than when I enter. BE objective is all he can said , what kind of CBT is that? . Im not lying he only has told me that .And he is from harvad . He ask me what medicine I should take with Nardil because he does not have experience on MAOIS . basically Im precribing my own meds. Im screwed
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>
Posted by jujube on November 29, 2004, at 22:31:37
In reply to so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by Tepiaca on November 29, 2004, at 21:47:32
Is today the first day of the second week that you started this job? If it is, then I would suggest that you be patient with yourself. You are in the process of learning a new job and adapting to a new environment and new people. You are on what is commonly known as your "learning curve", and given the nature of your job, I don't think anyone would expect you to be super productive after only one week. You obviously have the knowledge and ability to do a good job, and you should try to keep reminding yourself of that. I know from my own experience how traumatic starting a new job can be. The the feelings of intimidation and fear can be overwhelming in the first few weeks. But I can assure you, from my own personal experience, that it does get better. Although I would never have been considered the social butterfly of the office when I started a new job, I did manage to open up a bit with people as I got to know them and became more comfortable and confident with my role and my coworkers. I, too, felt that I could not interact with the people in the office. However, even though it was hard, I always managed a smile and a friendly "hello", and, with time, conversations and interacting just followed and were not as frightening. It's not easy being the "new" person, but I think a lot of people recognize this and try to be welcoming without being overbearing or intimidating.
As for the CBT, I does not sound like you have a very good therapist, and, if possible, you should try to find another one. You also may want to invest in a book called "The Feeling Good Handbook" by David Burns. It is basically a home study CBT self-help book. It is supposed to be very good.
And, give yourself time to adjust to your new environment and your new job, and try not to worry or be too hard on yourself. Be patient and try to give yourself some positive affirmations each day (e.g., I am capable of doing this job; I am intelligent and creative and have much to offer, etc.). You can do this, you just have to believe in yourself.
Take care.
Tamara
> I entered to a job as an engenieer . I have no experience , this is my first time I have work on my life .
> I feel so sad how unproductive I am . I just suffer more and more . I canīt interact with people . Iīm so afraid of them ,and more of the bosses . I try to hide from problems , and I dont face them . This morning I went to a meeting , I felt so observed and critized for being the new guy . At the end I was supossed to talk about some new problems and how to fix them rigth away , I couldnīt join the group . It was like I felt rejected by all . I was so scared ,so I leave ad went to the bathroom . Suicide is my mind , I canīt work . I did not born to have middle jobs I always wanted to be something important in a company , to be the best
> and I canīt even make a regular easy job. I hate this life
>
> Im adding 25mg Seroquel to Nardil 45+klono .5mg
>
> "The best CBT doctor" in the region is a scumbag . He does not know anything about CBT . I left his consultory room worse than when I enter. BE objective is all he can said , what kind of CBT is that? . Im not lying he only has told me that .And he is from harvad . He ask me what medicine I should take with Nardil because he does not have experience on MAOIS . basically Im precribing my own meds. Im screwed
>
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Posted by ed_uk on November 30, 2004, at 6:30:30
In reply to so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by Tepiaca on November 29, 2004, at 21:47:32
Hello Tepiaca :-)
Starting a new job is always hard but in a few weeks time you'll be much more productive. When I started my summer job, it was really hard at first because it took me ages to do things which the experienced staff could do really quickly. After a while, I started to enjoy the job, when you get to know the people you're working with it's much more fun. I'm sure the people that you're working with are not rejecting you, although it may feel that way.
As far as your meds are concerned, have you tried a higher dose of Nardil?
Best Wishes,
Ed.
Posted by mattsit on November 30, 2004, at 7:38:57
In reply to so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by Tepiaca on November 29, 2004, at 21:47:32
Tepiaca,
I am also an engineer and had similar problems to the ones you are describing. I am a mechanical engineer working for a mechanical equipment company. I would go running into the bathroom and stare into the mirror in fear and anxiety that I was dying of some horrible disease at least 50 times a day. I was unable to get any work done, I was afraid every move I was making was affecting our projects. I eventually went to the doctor and started on Lexapro. I have been much better since. I went through a period of feeling almost nothing, but I am able to expierence fun and jy again. Meanwhile i have begun to be able to work and be confident in what I am doing. I think you can get through this. Maybe you are feeling the pressure of our job in the new expierence. Talk to me if you want.
Posted by Tepiaca on December 1, 2004, at 21:30:11
In reply to Re: so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by owenus32 on November 29, 2004, at 21:55:38
Thank you for your support guys.
I had increased the Nardil dose until 75mg the lat year but I did not find relief . I down the dose again because of inmsomnia problems . Maybe with the Seroquel I could reach the 90mg with this problem.Thanks again for taking your time in writting to and unknow person .
I hope to perfom better at work , like you said with a little more of time maybe I could feel betterRegards
Tep
Posted by ed_uk on December 3, 2004, at 8:56:22
In reply to Re: so sad , I canīt work , I need more medicines, posted by Tepiaca on December 1, 2004, at 21:30:11
Hi!
Another drug you could try for the Nardil insomnia is Surmontil. I hope things improve for you. Keep us updated :-)
Best Wishes,
Ed.
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