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Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 21:54:33
I'm sitting here with a 3 inch stab wound in my stomache . It doesn't hurt and its stopped bleeding what I have been doing is beyond horror my doc would have me admitted but I don't feel mad or sick..people cut I just went deeper and theres no pain inside its as if it isnt a part of me.
Its not the pain or the blood nor is it for attention i seek , its the curiousity the "me" inside.
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 22:26:05
In reply to not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 21:54:33
just realised why...
It's a way of being in control I can choose to die or to live my body is my own.
By the way i wasn't in no fight i did it too myself.
Posted by IsoM on March 24, 2002, at 0:04:11
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 22:26:05
Please sweet dreamer, call for someone - don't leave it. We're selfish here - we don't want to lose you. PLease, *please* do something to help yourself. DON'T LEAVE US!!!!
Posted by LiLi80 on March 24, 2002, at 2:13:59
In reply to not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 21:54:33
I respect that your body is your own, I know how it feels to hurt yourself with no pain, I tried to hang myself this week, when I was doing it, i just couldnt breathe, the pain came later, when the post wouldnt hold me. You need to see a doctor before you come out of shock, cause its gonna hurt like hell. I will ask you not to kill yourself, because I feel that all life is precious. I am sure you would talk others out of suicide too. Its different tho when its your own life. when things get dark, and your in that place and you feel a sense of peace when thinking of death. You have probably talked people out of that place. But I know its near impossimple to talk yourself out of that place. Thats why this board is here. If you choose to, you will be missed, but please dont...I understand ...I am always there, that place is always in my head too. Go to the ER and tell them you got stabbed and mugged if you are afraid of being committed. WE are here if you need us.
lili
Posted by Zo on March 24, 2002, at 3:26:21
In reply to not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 21:54:33
Let us know how you are doing, okay?Give us a happy ending--we need one!
Hugs,
Zo
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 4:02:56
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by Zo on March 24, 2002, at 3:26:21
Didn't aim higher enough...stabbed the last reminant of a beer belly.
Thanks for all your concern..wasn't quite writing a suicide note I was downloading some stuff and just thought what a pathetic state i was in.
I haven't done anythink like this in bout 10 years...I needed a drink so I guess took alternative route...
There is a wonderful sense of calm and mild euphoria in knowing you can just drift off and never come back.
I've made numerous suicide attempts since I was 6 all pathetically unsuccessful.
It ain't bleeding -just a hole -bled at first but even then not much DO NOT READ NEXT IF YOU ARE EATINGI even put my finger inside and felt around...sounds really sick but looks kinda like a mouth. If the sides heal would be good place to carry keys maybe sew a little button on.....
I'll mention it to docdreamer
Posted by ST on March 24, 2002, at 4:29:36
In reply to Re: i ain't dead, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 4:02:56
Please get yourself stitched up!!!! We need you here!
sarah
Posted by Krazy Kat on March 24, 2002, at 10:49:16
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 22:26:05
dreamer:
believe it or not, this makes total sense to me. make sure you put some peroxide on it, though - don't want to have a nasty infection due to curiosity.
and keep us up to date about how you're feeling. I now cut an "M" into my arm when i float too far into oblivion - for mass. massiveness. massive pain.
- KK
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 12:14:06
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by Krazy Kat on March 24, 2002, at 10:49:16
this tune it's my current FU**IT euphoric tune
Obsidian by Banco de Gaia
Posted by Krazy Kat on March 24, 2002, at 12:59:51
In reply to Re: KrAzY KaT----Try n download this Tune, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 12:14:06
Am listening now - reminds me immediately of Enya, but I have a feeling that is going to change ---
I would love to do a music thread. I happen to especially love UK bands, so your input would be great. My (still) all time favorite - The Smiths - "Girlfriend in a coma, I know, I know, it's serious".
O.K., it's picking up (this is real time here). Enjoying it quite a bit - want to dance. Want to wave my arms about deliriously.
Did you used to go to night clubs and dance? I did until I got married.
Nice.
Now, reminds me of... Mila. (I mean that in a Good way - I thought her album was great).
Hubby calling me - will have to finish later.
Thanks for this!!
- KK
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 13:05:42
In reply to Re: i ain't dead, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 4:02:56
I shouldn't find this amusing but
it is funny
My wound has a charactor...My belly-buttons jelous. Water comes out like saliva ..if it gets infected or evolves into a head I'll get it fixed. Now it resembles a rectum...It's gonna hurt later ...
I really don't care... next week , month or two I'll probably be a hypocondriac.
Posted by Krazy Kat on March 24, 2002, at 14:13:08
In reply to Re: i ain't dead, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 13:05:42
name it, shall we? does it seem predisposed towards masculinity or femininity? or is it asexual? does it have religious leanings or is it an atheist?
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 20:44:50
In reply to Re: KrAzY KaT----Try n download this Tune, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 12:14:06
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 20:54:04
In reply to let's ..., posted by Krazy Kat on March 24, 2002, at 14:13:08
> name it, shall we? does it seem predisposed towards masculinity or femininity? or is it asexual? does it have religious leanings or is it an atheist?
It's a sore asexual sitting on the seventh gate
Posted by Jonathan on March 24, 2002, at 21:55:41
In reply to Re: i ain't dead, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 13:05:42
> ..if it gets infected or evolves into a head I'll get it fixed.
*Please*, Dreamer, don't wait and see if it gets infected - it may be too late.
It sounds to me as if this wound has penetrated your abdominal cavity and possibly allowed harmful bacteria to enter and cause a life-threatening infection. The relative lack of blood is actually a bad sign because white cells and antibodies in your blood would help to kill these microbes.
Krazy Kat has the right idea ...
> make sure you put some peroxide on it, though - don't want to have a nasty infection due to curiosity.
... but peroxide is *not* enough. I think you need antibiotics as soon as possible, and certainly before the first signs of infection appear. This means you *must* see a doctor - nothing with which you can self-medicate without a prescription will prevent peritonitis developing if your wound is infected, as it probably is.
This is from http://www.methodisthealth.com/digestive/peritons.htm
"Peritonitis can also develop after surgery when bacteria can enter into the abdomen during an operation"
[my comment] ... and if the `operation' involves cutting with an unsterilized blade and poking around with a washed but unsterilized and ungloved hand, then "can develop" becomes "probably will develop".
"Quick diagnosis of peritonitis is vital because complications can occur quickly .... Prompt treatment is extremely important as major complications can occur quickly and peritonitis can be fatal if not treated right away."
As LiLi said, you don't have to explain how it happened.
I'm not a medical expert, but on this occasion I'm sure enough to justify being alarmist.
Jonathan.
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 22:16:04
In reply to You need antibiotics now or peritonitis may kill u » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by Jonathan on March 24, 2002, at 21:55:41
Posted by trouble on March 25, 2002, at 0:16:13
In reply to Re: no worries ...I'll see a doc tommorow/today (nm), posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 24, 2002, at 22:16:04
Posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 2:40:45
In reply to not for the squeemish, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 23, 2002, at 21:54:33
> I'm sitting here with a 3 inch stab wound in my stomache ...
^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^^
Well, I guess that's one way to GET ATTENTION! Now if you had used a Ginzu knife (as seen on TV), you might have gotten an endorsement and made a few bucks.(I never realized there were so many children in this group!)
(a tired) kazoo
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 6:14:45
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 2:40:45
I'm just suprised at my own behaviour at a crisis of med discontinuation and constant hassall from a stupid person . I'm not all concerned about attention this is just a place to SHARE ? support experiences. Hurting myself pysically is something I haven't done for over 9 years ........yes I'm immature aren't we all in a crisis.
Believe me if I wanted out I wouldn't bother to write here
hoping you are well
dreamerx
Posted by Willow on March 25, 2002, at 7:14:12
In reply to Re: *not for attention dear KAZOO*, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 6:14:45
"........yes I'm immature aren't we all in a crisis."
This is such a true point. What is this? The child in us? Whenever I was a child and didn't get what I wanted I would pout and cry, and now when I'm overwhelmed I find myself wanting to behave like that child again. I want to be cared for.
Weak Willow
Posted by Krazy Kat on March 25, 2002, at 10:11:50
In reply to Re: not for the squeemish » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 2:40:45
dreamer is not an attention grabber - in fact she avoids it from what i have observed.
children, indeed! go sit in the corner and think about what you've done. ;)
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 11:36:25
In reply to shame on you kazoo..., posted by Krazy Kat on March 25, 2002, at 10:11:50
...didn't take it personally
I really hope you are well / as well as can be.
Posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 11:38:32
In reply to Re: Kazoo sweet » Krazy Kat , posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 11:36:25
...didn't take it to heart
I really hope you are well / as well as can be.brain scrambled
Posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 21:24:14
In reply to Re: correction kazoo, posted by CtrlAlt n Del on March 25, 2002, at 11:38:32
>
> ...didn't take it to heart
> I really hope you are well / as well as can be.
>
> brain scrambledI apologize for my insensitivity in my post to you.
Please understand that since October 2001, I have seen the very WORST in human nature, and most of it originating from my own family.
This fact alone isn't an easy thing for me to face, and I'm still in a state of stunned denial which is reflected in my mood and attitude.
Others around me have noticed this change in my behavior, some of which could get me into some really big-time trouble (don't even think about asking me to explain!).
I didn't mean to be so cold and callous. I'm really not.
Again, please accept my apologies.
(a remorseful) kazoo
Posted by Willow on March 25, 2002, at 21:57:58
In reply to Re: correction kazoo ... I need one, a big one! » CtrlAlt n Del, posted by kazoo on March 25, 2002, at 21:24:14
> (don't even think about asking me to explain!).
We wouldn't dream of that! You have got to be the most cryptic of all the posters on the board. Perhaps this has a little to do with your charm?
> I didn't mean to be so cold and callous. I'm really not.Kazoo you are too giving of yourself. No one who knows you on this board would think of you that way.
> Again, please accept my apologies.What is the saying, "Love is never having to say you are sorry?" But in this modern times, we do apologize, and I want you to forgive me for being so selfish, meanwhile you are needing a shoulder.
Whispering Willow
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