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Posted by Sourceror on December 17, 2001, at 22:33:32
I just was wanting to know from those of you who have had failed OD's what it was like and what they did to you. I get worried more and more about what this must be like lately.
Posted by akc on December 17, 2001, at 23:35:13
In reply to What was it like?, posted by Sourceror on December 17, 2001, at 22:33:32
Sourceror,
I won't go into details -- I don't think that helps anyone. But it is not pleasant. Nothing about it is. As I sit here and remember that night, it brings tears to my eyes that I was so low that it was the only choice I thought I could make. It ranks right up there with any of the abuse my father heaped upon me -- but it was worse, because I did it to myself. And I was lucky -- I didn't do any permanent physically damage.
The best thing is to avoid it at all cost. Get the help you need now -- before you OD. The right hospital can do wonders -- it did for me. I just wish I had gone there before I OD'd. I hope that if I ever get to that point again (a point I luckily did not reach in this past episode, even though it was quite bad), I will allow those around me to help me make that right choice -- to go somewhere that I can be helped without harming myself again (or worse, killing myself).
Please Sourceror -- reach out -- it is so hard, I know, but do it. You don't want to go through an OD'd. You don't.
akc
Posted by Dinah on December 17, 2001, at 23:57:39
In reply to What was it like?, posted by Sourceror on December 17, 2001, at 22:33:32
Sourceror,
I am very concerned about you. Your last few posts have been evocative expressions of your pain. You have so much talent.
I wish I knew what to say.
Please call your doctor, she sounds like a really sensible sort, and see about going to a hospital. Please stay safe.
You wrote of death as a release from pain, but you know, none of us knows what death will bring. I'm not just talking about the Christian idea of heaven and hell, but what if reincarnation really exists. You might come back as a laying hen in one of those really awful factories, or a baby cow destined to be milk fed veal.
You mentioned, in FUBAR, was it?, family and friends who care about you. Suicide will cause them such enormous pain that I know you would not wish on them.
Posted by ChrisK on December 18, 2001, at 3:12:53
In reply to What was it like?, posted by Sourceror on December 17, 2001, at 22:33:32
> I just was wanting to know from those of you who have had failed OD's what it was like and what they did to you. I get worried more and more about what this must be like lately.
If you really want to know the details please e-mail me today by clicking on my name where it says Posted By. It's nothing that should be posted here for the squeemish. Let me just say that it wasn't anything that a rational person would put themself through.
Chris
Posted by Willow on December 18, 2001, at 19:18:43
In reply to Re: What was it like? » Sourceror, posted by ChrisK on December 18, 2001, at 3:12:53
It rotted out my gut. Years, many years later, when I'm ready to live my stomache is causing much grief. Your body is a temple, worship it!
Whispering Willow
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