Posted by akc on December 17, 2001, at 23:35:13
In reply to What was it like?, posted by Sourceror on December 17, 2001, at 22:33:32
Sourceror,
I won't go into details -- I don't think that helps anyone. But it is not pleasant. Nothing about it is. As I sit here and remember that night, it brings tears to my eyes that I was so low that it was the only choice I thought I could make. It ranks right up there with any of the abuse my father heaped upon me -- but it was worse, because I did it to myself. And I was lucky -- I didn't do any permanent physically damage.
The best thing is to avoid it at all cost. Get the help you need now -- before you OD. The right hospital can do wonders -- it did for me. I just wish I had gone there before I OD'd. I hope that if I ever get to that point again (a point I luckily did not reach in this past episode, even though it was quite bad), I will allow those around me to help me make that right choice -- to go somewhere that I can be helped without harming myself again (or worse, killing myself).
Please Sourceror -- reach out -- it is so hard, I know, but do it. You don't want to go through an OD'd. You don't.
akc
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