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Posted by Willow on October 16, 2001, at 23:07:28
My youngest has come down with the chicken pox. That makes two done one to go. My middle one who hasn't had them yet asked if she could be innoculated against them. Hmmm. Yes, but? Choices mothers have to make today aren't so black and white.
Went to the internist today. Went over my alternatives and the best solution was to go back on the Mirapex for two months. The hopeful outcome being is that the side-effects will dissipate by then. I'm wondering if I'm being selfish here wanting my own physical comfort at the cost of subjecting my family to irritable and unpredictable behaviour and still not knowing that the outcome will be favourable.
I came home wanting support from my spouse. I told him I was going back on the Mirapex and the desired outcome. His answer was that he should move out. Perhaps it was his way of making a joke. I don't know. All I'm aware of is that we've grown distant.
The weather forecast is calling for snow. We haven't had a thorough frost yet, so at least I'm fairly sure that it won't stay. I'm confused! That I'm sure of with certainty.
Wilting
Posted by Krazy Kat on October 17, 2001, at 9:19:53
In reply to Confused, posted by Willow on October 16, 2001, at 23:07:28
Willow:
So nice to have a post from you, though a "distraught" one. Too much on your plate.
If it helps any, my husband and I had trouble re: the med adjustments. It really frustrated him. I just kept asking him if he'd rather I go off meds completely and be like I was before. The last depression really shut him up.
Wouldn't it be nice if you could go away and spend time alone until you feel better? So You don't have to deal with all the stress? ;)
I don't have children, so I can't say from that perspective, but from a marriage perspective, I think you Must work on yourself and make yourself healthy. The marriage itself cannot be otherwise.
You came to my defense a while ago about the need to be selfish, and how women tend not to look out for their own interests. I think that applies here. :)
Hope the household is well soon.
- K.
Posted by paxvox on October 17, 2001, at 15:46:15
In reply to Confused, posted by Willow on October 16, 2001, at 23:07:28
Ah gentle Willow,
From my own humble experience I say thus:
In order to deal with the rest of life's issues, we have to be as healthy ourselves as we can be. There is no sense in you being unhealthy along with your family issues on top.
You must think of what YOU feel like first. This may sound selfish, but make it a physical analogy;
how can I teach my child to walk if my own legs are broken?I used to let myself fall into that trap of feeling that I had to maintain my family's happiness and security above all else. However, if I am not 100% (or at least as good as I can be) how can I be even 50% effective in attaining that goal?
It took me quite some time to embrace this concept, but I have concluded I have to be well in order to be of best service to my family.
It is not really a difficult thing to do if you understand your goal remains to interact the best with your family.
How well does a wilting willow stand up to the storm winds? Grasp the support of your roots, hold on, fix yourself first, the rest will come in time.
PAX
Posted by Greg on October 17, 2001, at 17:58:40
In reply to Confused, posted by Willow on October 16, 2001, at 23:07:28
Lady Willow,
My wife recently shared with me how difficult it was for her to go thru all the trial and error of watching me trying med after med until I found the combo that worked. Sometimes we can forget how hard our illness can be on the ones who love us. But she also told me that it was 10 times harder to watch the pain and suffering I was in when the depression was going unchecked. She said she was glad I did whatever I had to do to get better. So am I.
I can only echo what the others have said, be selfish about yourself and do whatever it takes to help you get well.
You are in my thoughts milady.
Greg
Posted by Kristi on October 18, 2001, at 1:07:34
In reply to Re: Confused » Willow, posted by paxvox on October 17, 2001, at 15:46:15
Hi...... just a comment.... I think you have a great head on your shoulders. Your posts show so much intelligence, humor when necessary, etc.... I enjoy when I see your name to read. I just think people should give compliments when they are do. That's all. :-)
Kristi
> Ah gentle Willow,
>
> From my own humble experience I say thus:
>
> In order to deal with the rest of life's issues, we have to be as healthy ourselves as we can be. There is no sense in you being unhealthy along with your family issues on top.
>
> You must think of what YOU feel like first. This may sound selfish, but make it a physical analogy;
> how can I teach my child to walk if my own legs are broken?
>
> I used to let myself fall into that trap of feeling that I had to maintain my family's happiness and security above all else. However, if I am not 100% (or at least as good as I can be) how can I be even 50% effective in attaining that goal?
>
> It took me quite some time to embrace this concept, but I have concluded I have to be well in order to be of best service to my family.
>
> It is not really a difficult thing to do if you understand your goal remains to interact the best with your family.
>
> How well does a wilting willow stand up to the storm winds? Grasp the support of your roots, hold on, fix yourself first, the rest will come in time.
>
>
> PAX
Posted by paxvox on October 18, 2001, at 6:38:31
In reply to Re: Confused-PAXVOX, posted by Kristi on October 18, 2001, at 1:07:34
> Kristi
Thanks for the cuddos, but I feel I have gotten as much support from others when I have been in a rut. Either way, as a group, we are stronger than as individuals "three strands together are not easily torn".
PAX
Posted by Willow on October 18, 2001, at 10:20:53
In reply to Re: Confused-PAXVOX » Kristi, posted by paxvox on October 18, 2001, at 6:38:31
Sometimes words aren't enough. Reading your posts Kat made me want to grab my favourite blankie and flee to your home. We could spend our days leisurely exploring the city you love. A long lost dream of mine has been to go jogging in Central park with my canine companion. Perhaps the the vision of us running together through the park with our dogs leading will help me get the nerve to go back on the mirapex.
Pax I agree with Kristi, your words offer comfort. Your analogy gave me a pleasant quiet smile. I have a few straggly pines lined up in front of my house. My pup started furiously digging around one chewing with delight on any roots he was able to spring loose. Perhaps Kat is right and my responsibilites are wearing me out.
Greg at the doctor's office are many paintings of historical times. I'm to return there in two months and will try to remember the titles. I shall be sure to report back.
Little Willow
Posted by paxvox on October 18, 2001, at 15:40:18
In reply to PAX, Kat, Greg friends, posted by Willow on October 18, 2001, at 10:20:53
Willow, I'm happy to see your response. Please know that all any of us can do is the least we can do, and that is to care. To care, have hopes wish success and good fortune to those we know only from words and expressions. I'm listening to a 12 year old CD as I write this. I hear: "Close your eyes and try to sleep now. Close your eyes and try to dream. Clear your mind and do your best to try and wash the palette clean. We can't begin to know how much we really care. But I hear your voice inside me,and I see your face everywhere, now I say, we belong to the light."
Lowen and Navarro from "Walking on a wire"-- song: "We belong".
Fare well gentle Willow, in my mind you are as free as the wind.
In fraternity and friendship
PAX
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