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Posted by AKC on August 11, 2001, at 20:00:23
Okay,
Confession time. I didn't go far. I just banned myself for about two days -- couldn't stand not looking. Then found it safe to read for the past 4 days. And the past two days have been itching to post. Even though I am in a pretty depressed state, you guys and gals can sure make me laugh sometime. And there are threads that are just hard to resist.
I'm pretty suicidal in some ways, but am nowhere going to do it. Wouldn't be fair to my work. Really, that is what my head is saying. I hate hurting others or letting people down. Someday I will share with you folks the struggle I had to go through to get licensed in Missouri and Kansas because of my mental illness. But I remember telling my attorney once that if I was going to kill myself, I wouldn't hurt any clients in the process -- I would put my affairs in order. Well, now that I am a practicing attorney, that will probably always keep me safe -- by the time I got all that done, the meds would probably have fully kicked in and the danger would be past.
But don't worry, right now if I was to do so, it would be more a gesture than anything. And my pdoc put my back on my full dose of lithium and I can tell today that it is starting to kick in. So by the time I see her this week, I'll probably be okay.
I am lucky. I spoke with my pdoc everyday this week -- and my therapist. I'm calling in all the time this weekend. I really have a great treatment team. I get so angry when I read how some of you are treated -- it just isn't right. And I feel guilty -- how did I rate so high?
Thanks for being here. I really am glad I found this place.
Your resident hounddog.
Posted by Willow on August 11, 2001, at 21:01:46
In reply to Lurking, posted by AKC on August 11, 2001, at 20:00:23
Gees AKC, why does my will power suck so bad! (Pardon the language, but I can't think of a better way of putting it.) Wish I could say glad to hear things are going well. I too find when I'm down that I read more than respond, then I have to bite.
Welcome back
Willowps puppy has now ate three telephones. new ones out of his reach. slow learner hear.
Posted by susan C on August 11, 2001, at 22:35:32
In reply to Re: Lurking, posted by Willow on August 11, 2001, at 21:01:46
> Gees AKC, why does my will power suck so bad! (Pardon the language, but I can't think of a better way of putting it.) Wish I could say glad to hear things are going well. I too find when I'm down that I read more than respond, then I have to bite.
>
> Welcome back
> Willow
>
> ps puppy has now ate three telephones. new ones out of his reach. slow learner hear.
Posted by AMenz on August 18, 2001, at 23:54:22
In reply to Lurking, posted by AKC on August 11, 2001, at 20:00:23
YOu probably make a lot of money as a lawyer, hence you get better treatment or have agreat insurance plan.
I used to be a lawyer too but I have literally become phobic about the law, break into a sweat if I have to see a client.
> Okay,
>
> Confession time. I didn't go far. I just banned myself for about two days -- couldn't stand not looking. Then found it safe to read for the past 4 days. And the past two days have been itching to post. Even though I am in a pretty depressed state, you guys and gals can sure make me laugh sometime. And there are threads that are just hard to resist.
>
> I'm pretty suicidal in some ways, but am nowhere going to do it. Wouldn't be fair to my work. Really, that is what my head is saying. I hate hurting others or letting people down. Someday I will share with you folks the struggle I had to go through to get licensed in Missouri and Kansas because of my mental illness. But I remember telling my attorney once that if I was going to kill myself, I wouldn't hurt any clients in the process -- I would put my affairs in order. Well, now that I am a practicing attorney, that will probably always keep me safe -- by the time I got all that done, the meds would probably have fully kicked in and the danger would be past.
>
> But don't worry, right now if I was to do so, it would be more a gesture than anything. And my pdoc put my back on my full dose of lithium and I can tell today that it is starting to kick in. So by the time I see her this week, I'll probably be okay.
>
> I am lucky. I spoke with my pdoc everyday this week -- and my therapist. I'm calling in all the time this weekend. I really have a great treatment team. I get so angry when I read how some of you are treated -- it just isn't right. And I feel guilty -- how did I rate so high?
>
> Thanks for being here. I really am glad I found this place.
>
> Your resident hounddog.
Posted by sar on August 20, 2001, at 0:12:38
In reply to Re: Lurking, posted by AMenz on August 18, 2001, at 23:54:22
i think i missed your original post, but have now caught up. i may have been in jail or an amnesiac when you first posted "lurking." lurk it girl work it girl...
:)
you know it's all cool here...
sar
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