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Posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
The intensity of how bad I feel right now is way out of proportion to the triggers. Even though one trigger was sort of a shadow of one of my greatest OCD fears. And the losses reminded me of other losses. But even so, I know I don't *always* react this badly.
I'm going to talk to my therapist about it. Maybe there's something biochemical going on. Not that I'll do anything about it, because my biochemical reactions rarely last long enough for meds to work, but it would give me a new perspective, I think.
The intensity is just too much to be normal, even for me. Like I often feel like my hands or arms don't belong to me, but I had a bout of that in session that was so extreme that my hair felt like some external thing bugging the heck out of me by feeling so weird. Or I take Risperdal as needed, but it's been needed every day this week.
Or maybe... Maybe the feelings get so intense and make me forget the original trigger. But the door to that particular emotional well opens and a whole bunch spills out.
I dunno. I just wish I would get back to my normal dysthmic self.
Posted by Jen Star on July 22, 2005, at 9:31:36
In reply to You know, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
hi dinah,
I'm sorry things are so rough right now. I'm sure you'll get back to normal soon! The weekend is coming up...can you take some time to relax and pamper yourself a bit? Maybe that would help your mind relax and just get back in the regular groove of things.take care,
JenStar
Posted by fallsfall on July 22, 2005, at 10:46:12
In reply to You know, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
It is hard when you feel foreign to yourself.
Can you find some ways to be good to yourself during this stressful time? Have you read "The Woman's Comfort Book"? It has some great ideas.
Try to choose something every day that is pure indulgence. You deserve it.
(or you can come to Camp Comfort and keep me company - you can leave to go see your therapist and then come back)
(((((Dinah)))))
Posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 11:55:20
In reply to You know, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
Realizing that it is a possibility has me feeling better already.
Or maybe being able to realize it means I'm already on the way up.
My therapist was so proud of me for that insight. Hey! I feel worse than is warranted, maybe it's biological.
I'll have to remember to warn him not to use it on me (or to use it very carefully) if I'm feeling really bad. He's likely to get his hand bitten off.
Posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 11:58:33
In reply to Even more amazing, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 11:55:20
I'm feeling rather better about needing him since our very very intense session Wednesday. And I feel like he listened and was trying his best to understand.
And... When Dinah died, I called on the way to the vets to tell him, even though it was 10:30? something like that. I told him he didn't need to call back, and he didn't. But I did think of him.
Surely I still need him, and in just the same way.
Posted by rabidreader on July 23, 2005, at 11:42:13
In reply to On the other hand, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 11:58:33
Dinah,
I have had that unreal feeling before. For me it is like an OCD thing where I keep "hearing" metallic things scraping and "seeing" them in my mind's eye. It makes me feel out-of-body. Isn't it strange?
Posted by Jen Star on July 23, 2005, at 17:21:12
In reply to You know, posted by Dinah on July 22, 2005, at 8:00:05
Dinah,
whenever I get weird body sensations, I think for me it's a warning that I need to slow down, relax and de-stess. My body gets weird when I don't get enough sleep, or when I'm keyed up for too long. I know you've been through a lot of stress lately. I hope that when things calm down, your body will too! I know that you might not be at all like me, but it's just food for thought.take care!
JenStar
Posted by Dinah on July 23, 2005, at 18:48:11
In reply to Re: You know » Dinah, posted by Jen Star on July 23, 2005, at 17:21:12
That particular feeling is definitely related to anxiety. I've always wondered if it had a direct link to breathing too. Like maybe it was a side effect of breathing too shallowly and quickly.
But I don't think it's normal for me to have the feelings be so intense.
I guess I'd better get more med-compliant.
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